finally, i stood up once again.. and i'm afraid to fall again..

bye bye.

2006-10-16T21:26:00.000-07:00

moved my blog to my multiply. come visit it anytime . :]
http://mimtotz.multiply.com. see ya. :]

FINAL 1st sem week. yay!

2006-10-12T08:29:00.000-07:00

finally the puffy eyes, late night homework marathon, walking from gate 1 to out MTH building [super far, like walking from Alabang Hills Gate to Cinemas, Town. Far, eh?] are coming to a halt once this week is over. yay! i'm so excited for our Sem Break na. :] woohoo.

I am going to a CSB-hosted party on Saturday. i'm supposed to go to a Debut of my friend. am one of the 18 candles kasi. kaso si Gege nga, bought me ticket to this party on Saturday. kaka-excite. hehe.

i went to Mon's house nung Tuesday. Tambay tambay lang. haha, kasi maaga ako umuwi. grabe, he made me food, and man, i was stuffed. sobrang i didn't eat dinner na kasi binusog ako ni baby. haha. grabe talaga un.

Anyway, wala kaming pasok tomorrow. Town nanaman with the girls. i missed them. :] woohoo. tapos 3 tests on Saturday, and we're done! excited na ako sa 2nd sem e. kasi ganda ng mga subs ko. and NO LOGIC AND ALGEB na. yes! papasok na ako lagi, hahahaha. :]

i'm gonna miss my friends. waaa. mga kalokohan ng mga topak na un. haha. :]

where to go kaya sa vacation? hihi.

uhm..

2006-10-07T23:16:00.000-07:00

last week na namin this week ngaung First Sem. weee, excited na akong magSembreak. super long vacation from school. so happy. :]

yesterday was FUN. nag-Rockwell kami ng kada, papaaus ung iPod pero hiningan ako ng receipt. eh wala akong receipt kasi gift lang sakin ung iPod, pinapapunta pa akong San Juan, i was like, how the hell am i going to that friggin' place?? dko alam un. hahahaha. so, reklamo ako to the max ky Mon, kasi naasar talaga ako kasi dko naaus ung iPod ko. kaya sb nia samahan nalang niya ako sa Megamall to get my iPod fixed. yay! hahaha. :]

aun after Rockwell, went to Ultra. watched UAAP vs. NCAA games. ang saya. pic galore. nandun c Christ Tiu! shetty. sobrang na-starstruck ako. as in, literal. d ako nakaandar. seryoso. hahah. check out the pix dito --> http://mimtotz.multiply.com/photos/album/132 .. yan. :]

tapos went straight to Town, libot ng konti. tapos went home na. Mon went here. the next day na xa umuwi. hahahah. napagod si baby, galing pa kasing outing ng section nila. :p

Anyway, grabe. naiinis ako. bakit nafifil ko toh. i am not supposed to feel anything. hinde pde. so naman kng ganun? ok, nasanay ako na nanjan xa pero ganun talaga, mabilis magFall-out e. and mabilis nakakamove on nag mga tao. kaya buti nalang, d ako nagpakagat. kundi, hurt-ness all over again. tsktsk. eeeeeeeeeeee. dna ako star. hahahaha.

talking to myself:Shaddap mimi. grr.

everybody deserves a SECOND chance

2006-10-03T12:57:00.000-07:00

grabe wala nanaman kaming pasok ngayon. at ang balita pa, sa Monday na magreresume ung classes sa DLSU-D. grabe, eh finals na dapat namin next week. ibig sabihin mamomove pa ung sembreak namin. waaaaa.

aun, actually, un nga. about the title of my blog.

i'm so happy kasi yung boo ko, si cam, naiintindihan ako ngaun. and talagang she told me na kung san man ako masaya, dun daw xa. :) i love cam talaga. wee.

now i can finally say na i have to let go of everything that happened in the past. and let him have his 2nd chance, completely. kasi inaamin ko, dko pa maxadong ma-let go un and i'm so scared na it might happen again, pero now, he showed me how much he's sorry and he proved so much to me. like, after how many months, sobrang he did so much to me. na kahit ipagtabuyan ko na siya, kasi i'm super scared to get hurt again, nanjan parn xa. hindi nia ako iniiwan. maybe it's really time to let go of the past and be happy with him nalang. :] besides, sobrang alam ko na mahal nia talaga ako. so baby, don't worry, I TRUST YOU.

kuya jc is on his way to America right now. waaa, naiyak ako sa text nia kagabi. and ngaun, saying na his airplane is moving na daw. thanks for everything kuya jc! i'm so glad nakilala kita. and kahit papano nakabonding. :] you made me really happy. kitakits ulit huh? love you. we'll miss you!!

he loves me. :]

2006-10-01T22:25:00.000-07:00

ok, so ngaun lang kami nagkakuryente after ung fucker bagyong Milenyo na yan struck Pinas. haha.

update update.

hmm, wat happened this week. sobrasng pagod lagi from Cheering practice. pero fun naman. kasi laftrip mga pipz sa squad. haha. mari and i are beeing vain lagi. loka loka talaga ung babaeng un e. hihi.

aun. tapos todo practice nung Wednesday, kasi ineexpect namin na compet na namin the next day. aba, sumalakay naman si Milenyo. langya. mga 10 na ako nakarating ng Alabang nun. i was with Bevs, my cheermate, kasi taga-Muntinlupa xa. kaia sabay kami umuwi. wala kaming masakyang shuttle! grabe! kaya kng san san na kami nakadatin. buti nlng meron sa Robinsons Dasma. yey. tas sinundo ako ni baby sa Caltex. ;] baet. hihi.

tapos d nxt day. woah! nawalan na kami ng puno, at mga poste naglalaglagan na. grabe ginawa nung bagyong un. adik! haha. kaya aun, steady sa bahay. 9am nwalan kami ng kuryente. grabe, ang sarap pa ng nuod ko ng John Tucker Must Die nun tapos mawawalan ng kuryente. haha.

Friday, nagaway nanaman kami ni Tita. grabe, nagwawala xa sa Festi. umalis talaga ako, pumunta ako kila Gege at dun ako natulog. Mama understood naman d situation. [btw, mama is my lola. haha.]. aun. kaya ok sknia. kasi lagi nalang nangingielam ung Tita ko na un. sobrang i can't understand bat ako laging pnagiinitan nia at ako lagi may ksalanan. hmpf. aun. so tambay kila gege.

tapos the next day umuwi sa house mga 2pm, coz nagyaya si Gelo magtown, so i went home with Gege tapos ligo. tambay sa town kahit la kuryente. haha. ang saya naman. kasi PRM were there. ang saya. :] tapos grabe ang init sa Town. kaya tambay lang sa Seattle's. natulog ako kila Gege ulit. hahaha. natawa ako, kasi pagdating ko kila Gege may tumawag si Mikey, bro ko. Mon was at our house daw, la naman ako dun. hahaha. di naman nia kasi alam na kila Gege ako matutulog, so he was like, "la ka na ba balak umuwi? jan ka na ata nakatira e!".. haha. pnapunta ko nlng xa kila Gege. hahaha. :] sori baby.

aun, tapos went home kanina mga 10.30am. i was supposed to go to Megamall to get my iPod fixed na. kaso sarado daw EDSA kaya d ako natuloy. haha. pero aun, Mon went here nalang mga 5pm ata un. :] hehe. nakicharge haha. and shempre para makita nadin ako. yiiii. hihi. :] la padn kasi sila kuryente eh.

grabe, i had a fight with baby after. kasi basta un. :] pero ok na kami ngaun. sobra. :] love nia talaga ako. promise dna ako papaapekto sa kahit ano. awww. he made me smile. :] BIG HUG for BABY. :]

wala kami pasok bukas. bwahahaha. ;p

is this the sign?

2006-09-23T00:11:00.000-07:00

11 days since my last post.

there have been happy, sad, irritating, WEIRD things that happened during the past eleven days.

hmmm, where to start? uhm.. last weekend was fun. :) sobra. we had a House Party @ Ances' house. haha. hinatid kami ni Mon. super nice nia talaga. :) tapos xa din sumundo sa amin dun. haha, baet! :):) smiles for him.

aun. lakas trip lang kami dun. hahaha, inom inom ng konti. xempre d mawawala ung pix! hahahaha. may "baha" adventure pa kami! hahaha. sa sobrang saya namin nung day na un, nagpaplano na naman kami ni dre ng party. this tym, overnyt sa vivere!.. go! sana payagan db? hahahaha. so, nagyayaya na kami ng pips. haha.

sunday. super rest sa bahay. haha. sobrang nakakabato.

Monday. nothing much happened. typical Monday. hahaha. tapos Tuesday, hahaha.ang hyper naming lahat! p.e. namin, so Aero day namin. haha, i was dancing Stop ng Spice Girls with my blockmates. siyempre go na go ako. hahaah. feeling. :) aun, REED time namin, Class Mass. Collector ako. hahaha. :) Wednesday, d ako pumasok ng ENGLISH100. so 11am, me&friends went to SM PalaPala then Poch led me to the sakayan ng bus na derecho sa Taft. magisa lang ako, take note. adventure!.. haha. i was like, talking to the conductor the whole ride, kasi kinakabahan ako baka mali ung babaan ko. aun, so he helped me, he said na dapat bumaba ako sa Quirino, then magsakay ako sa jeep going to Lasalle. hahaha. awa ng Diyos, nakadating naman ako. and tipid pa. :) yey yey.

aun, went to Araneta w/ Alyx, Lia & Gege. Rode LRT&MRT. grabe, hassle pero exciting. may nakaaway pa akong ale sa LRT! solid. ang bastos kasi, nanulak! hahaha. pak u ka, hahahaha.

tapos nakarating na ng Gateway, met up w/ Raffy. tapos punta na ng Araneta. ang saya!.. ang daming Bedans!! woohoo. c besh nandun. yey. :)

sayang talo! pero Champs Beda Lions ngaun! woohoo!!!.. :) i love it i love it! lalo na c Papa Aljamal! yey! :)

next game: USTE.vs.ATENEO.. go ADMU! hahahaah. CHRIS TIU. woohoo. :) papa ko din.

o xa. nxt tym na ang serious post. nid to slip na at may cheering practice pko tomorrow. haha. Nytie guys.

p.s.
inggit ako. d ako nakaakyat ngaun sa Antipolo. huhu. :(

bagsak ang body.. haha.

2006-09-11T19:35:00.000-07:00

grabe, bangag mode.

ang saya nung weekend. ang dami kong narealize and na-experience.

i was one of the chosen auxis/aspis to join the PR#100 last september 8-11, '06. ang saya nun. and sobrang honor for me na mapili na umakyat. i love it. kahit bagsak ang body ko nung unang night ng trabaho as kitchen ministry, ok parin. sineserve naman c Superfriend, while having fun w/ your friends (gaya nga ng sabi ni Kuya Deneb sa akin).. :) ang saya nung retreat. sobrang nakakatouch and ang dami mo tlga marerealize after. ang saya ko sa PRM. :)

aun, arrived in Beda mga 3pm ata un or 3.30. ang saya, namis ko sina Gege. :) c Melvs din! as in super hug kami! he missed me. awwww. :) aun. went home mga 10pm na. may PRM party pa kasi after. eat all you can sa balcruz hall. ang saya. :) tapos ang vain ng lahat ng tao. swear! as in, nagkakasakitan na ang mga tao for pictures. LITERAL. hahaha. :)

natulog ako agad pagdating ko house. bangag ako eh. hahaha. :)

kanina dko inattend-an ung NSTP namin. so after english 101, went to town to meet up w/ Gelo & Butch. aun, FT kami. tapos lakad kami ni Gelo upto Alabang Hills tapos nagjip na ako. Umuwi na ako. hehehe. :) aun lang naman.

aun. gaya nga ng cnbi ko during the retreat i realized so many things. grabe, lakas tlga effect ng retreat skn lague. :) i love Superfriend. :) haha, bedans lang may tawag sknia nian!.. Go. :)

looking forward to another akyat to Antip. hehe. :)

i'm so tired..

2006-09-02T14:04:00.000-07:00

yes. finally Midterms are over!.. i'm so relieved. haha. yesterday, i was the first one who got up nung Logic exam namin. wahaha. kala mo ang galing galing kasi unang una pero hinde.. i got up na kasi wala na akong masagot!.. hahahah. stupid me.. hahahaha. natapos ko ung exam pero aun. wala na talagang malabas sa utak ko eh. haha.

tapos after that, i went straight to Town. kasi me and Mon are going to meet up to watch You Are The One. hihi. baduy movie for some of you pero shet, ang cute ng movie. it made me cry talaga. ang cute cute pa ni Sam. ahaha. :)

Gege sent me a quote.. read nio. : it's not certain whether the one you have now is the one you'll be with for the rest of your life.. there's even no guarantee if the one you just met is the one who will love you forever.. coz there's no such thing as the ideal man or woman..no such thing as the right person or the right one.. it is YOU who can make LOVE LASR A LIFETIME.. so if ever somebody asks you:"is she/he the right one?", you may answer: "i'm not sure, but i intend to make him/her MY ONLY ONE".. :)

awwwwww db?.. grabe after i watched the movie, i can't help but think things over. honestly, i really really LOVE him. super, w/ all my heart. & i really want to spend my life w/ him. pero i am getting tired of our little situation. i sacrificed everything na and suffered all the sufferings na pde nang ma-suffer sa isang "relationship", pero i can't understand why these things aren't enough to give me that one thing that i am asking and dying to have. One guy to call me his own. Yes, he is calling me his own, pero dko ma-feel un in this kind of situation. the feeling's incomplete talaga. shit. life talaga is unfair. Pero i really do appreciate all of the things na ginagawa nia rin para sa akin. and the fact that ayaw nia talaga ako mawala sa buhay nia. pero shuxx, Lord unti unti na nawawala ung spark of hope in my heart and i'm slowly becoming weak coz of this thing.. Help me be strong again. i want this to work out kasi eh..

then the day came na there's this guy na after a long long wait, dumating na and he's willing to love me w/ all his heart. & talagang he's such a great guy. all-in-one na xa. kaso, dami hadlang. & talagang di pde. para ngang line sa The Closer I Get To You na song ung, "..over and over again, i try to tell myself that we can never be more than friends, and all the while inside i knew it was real the way you make me feel..".. another shitness.

All i want is for everything to work out, & for me to be strong enough to take all of what's happening sa life ko. kasi mahirap na talaga. i want everything to be SURE. hindi yung i'm always left hanging onto something that's never going to be COMPLETELY mine.

after a looooooooong time. haha

2006-08-30T21:00:00.000-07:00

yan.. update na ako sa wakas. nakakainis kasi Blogspot eh. topak.

shuxx. 2 weeks na. di ko alam kng ano na nangyari.

midterms namin ngaun. xempre, gaya ng sabi ni gege, wala dw ako kwenta kasi d ako nagaaral. hahahaha. boring eh. hahaha. :)

last week, wat happened nga ba?.. uhm. Monday. walang pasok, Ninoy Aquino Day kasi. haha. nung Wednesday, ang saya, nagCut ako. ng last sub. so dapat upto 5 ako. pero 11 dapat alis na ako para magkikita kami nila Cam sa Southland tas sabay sabay kami pnta sa Taft. eh nagkaroon ng cheering chuvaness sa amin. nagparactice ako upto 2pm. kaya late na ako nakadating ng Taft. mga 4.30 na. hihihi. :) nag-hop kami sa USTe. haha. :) xempre si ances nagwala!.. nung nakita kami as in, nagFreeze ung moment nung tumili xa. hahaha. Ances talaga o. tapos tambay sa Dapitan w/ Jeni, Cam, Jean, Ances & Nicai. :) upto mga 7 ganun. ang saya!.. tapos pumunta sa house nila ances sa may uste. stay dun upto 8pm. grabe ung nangyari nun. kinikilig ako. hahaha. sama ko kinilig pa ako. pero ganito kasi un,

lowbatt na ako sobra. eh mejo tampo ako ky Mon. di nia alam na nagpunta ako Taft, eh nagOff na fone ko. di ko na xa natxt nun, kasi nga tampo effect ako. haha. aun, nung malapit na ako bumaba sa Southland w/ Nicaye, may tumawag sa fone nia, c Mon! gulat ako e. sinsigawan na ako. nagaalala na dw xa, gnun. Bebe Ances txted me too, she told me Mon called her din. and c Gege tinawagan. Pati maid namin kinausap!.. phone pal na sila eh. hahahaha. :) awwwwwwwww. Sweet nia. :) hihi. naTouch lang ako. sori na. hahahaha. :)

last week was Quiz week for me. grabe, nosebleed everyday sa walang kamatayang quiz!.. hahaha. nagMidterm pa kami sa BioLab. xempre ako, hula ever nlng. hahaha. lalo na ung lecheng practical test namin!.. langya un!.. hahaha. hayy naku.

Saturday, nagPractice ako ng Cheering. haha. compet na namin sa September 21 ata. bsta mga ganung day. nabanat nanaman buto ko!.. 8-5 ba naman eh!.. grabe, adik. haha. pero enjoy kasi nkapagdance dance nanaman ako. hihi. :) tapos paguwi ko pa, ang haba ng pila sa tryke!!.. grabe eh.. 1hr ako pumila. langya yan. haha.

Sunday walang nangyari. Monday wala ako pasok kasi la ako sched ng test on that day. nagaral ako, pero nagbreak ako, nagpunta ako Town. met up w/ Kenneth, Kim and Jam. NFFs. hahaha. :) saya. watched Little Man. kakatawa ung movie na un. hahaha. :) aun. may new txtmate ako, c Jam. haha. stig. :)

aun. tapos aral mode nanaman sa gabi.

actually, may problem ako e.

i'm SUPER confused. di ko alam gagawin ko.. bakit nandito nanaman ako sa situation na ito. i am not doing something wrong naman. i just want to have a STEADY relationship. pero ayaw ibigay sakin ni LORD un. lagi nalang may hadlang. bakit ganun?.. hirap i-explain eh. i'm afraid of what people may think if sabihin ko pa. let's just say. lahat nalang talaga may HADLANG.

i'm happy pero talagang.. may kulang eh. hayyyyy. labo ko ba?.. nxt time, mas detailed pa. i have to study pa eh. pero shit, how can i study in this kind of situation.. fudge.

you make me happy.. :)

2006-08-15T18:34:00.000-07:00

wow. tagal ko na pala hindi nagBblog. :( haha. so many things to say!.. nakalimutan ko na sa sobrang tagal. haha.

so last last weekend. PRM meeting. August 5 un. went to Town kasama ko namin ni Gege and Ray mga PRM. ang saya. :) nuod kami nila Ray ng Ant Bully. ang kuripot ni Ray!.. nilibre nga kami, isang large red iced tea lang sa Tokyo Tokyo. hahahaha. share pa kami ni Gege dun. haha. san ka pa diba? hahahaha. baliw un c ray eh. haha.

di ko na maalala kung anong nangyari nung Sunday nung weekend na un eh. haha. :) oh well, last week, for me was super bilis. as in gulat ako Friday na!.. haha. lungkot nung Monday and Tuesday last week kasi di kami nagkasabay ni TJ. kahiya nung Tuesday, quiz namin sa P.E. Aero ung gagawin. ahha. pinahiya lang namin ung mga sarili namin nung mga ka-group ko e. hahaha. mukha lang kaming tanga sa harap ng mga tao e. hahaha. Wednesday nagsabay na kami, & sabay din kami umuwi nun. Thursday sabay lang kami umuwi, tapos derecho ako Ruins nun. nakita ko c Jay. haha. ang kulit. nung gabi, bglang sinabi ni Mon na punta dw xa dito bahay, so pumunta xa dito, hehe. :) tapos last Friday, dinalaw ako ni Anna and Gege sa skul. :) saya. from Taft nagBus cla hanggang Dasma. hehehe. swit nila noh? nag-cut ako ng Bio lecture. haha. aun, pinakilala ko cla kay TJ. tas pnasabay ko na cla kay TJ umuwi. bait nga nia eh kasi cnamahan nia cla Gege. kylangan ko pa kasi magAttend ng Bio lab eh. late nga ako eh, ang bait ni Mam, hinintay ako bago cla magquiz. haha. pa-importante talaga ako. hahaha. :p as usual, uwian ko 8pm. sabay ulit kami ni Jekko & Jay. nagyaya cla magTown. eh nagyaya din c Mon magTown, so cge Town na kami. nagkita kami ni Mon tapos hinatid ako sa house tapos sb nia niyaya daw xa ni Kaz sa Porch. eh gusto ko makapunta ng Porch, sumama ako sakania!.. haha, pero sadly, di na sa Porch pumunta. i forgot the name e, pero somewhere in BF nalang din sila nagkita. 1am na ako nakauwi. haha. uminom ako konting Red Horse ni Mon, pero langya kahit konti lang namula parin ako! walang ya yan o. hahaha.

nung Saturday, aug.12. ang aga ko nagising! 2am nako naktlog tas nagcng ako 8.30am. balak namin ni Gege punta kami kila Ances kaso late na kami nakaalis, mga 11.30am na. dapat 10am pati di namin alam kng san sasakay nung nasa Sucat na kami. ahaha. so parang umikot lang kami kasi from Sucat sumakay kami ni Gege ng jeep papuntang Alabang, eh naisip namin dadaan naman ng bahay nila Anna, so pinuntahan muna namin c Anna sa house nila sa Rizal Village. haha. :) tapos sabay sabay na kami pumuntang Town. :) hinatid kami nung Dad nia. tapos met up w. Lia & Ances, nuod na kami Click. :) ang saya ng Click promise! nakakatwa tas bglang nakakaiyak ung dulo. :) ang sweet pa, awwww. :) aun, tapos went home muna w/ Gege & Lia kasi kumuha ako gamit kasi matutulog ako kila Gege. un, nung una wala ako magawa nung kila Gege kasi nandun c Ren so siyempre privacy. ahaha. :) ang singit ko lang sknla. haha.

Sunday, aga namin gumising. haha. mga 1am na kami natulog tapos mga 8.30 nagising nanaman ako. leche. ahaha, ligo na tapos 10.30 na kami nakaalis ni Gege tapos arrived in Beda mga 11.30 :) hehe. grabe ang dami namin ginawa!.. ang saya. :) upto 9pm kami sa Beda kamusta naman un. hehe. ;) saya. sbay sabay kami umuwi nila Ray, sinamahan nila ako umuwi sa bahay. nakakatakot kaia! c Ray pa nananakot! leche. aun grabe kapagod tlga ung day na un, pero it payed off naman. saya eh. :)

mejo naaway ko c Mon that night. waaa. sori, i was so tired kasi e. :( sori sori.

aun, next time na ung mga nangyari dis wik. masaya ako. :) super. weeeee

hello? brain?

2006-08-04T09:31:00.000-07:00

we're currently having our e-class in Logic. if some of you guys don't know the meaning of this, ito yung, parang nag-iinternet class kau. hehehe. kaya ngaun nasa Net cafe kami ng mga blockmates ko, answering the excercise online. galing. :)

wow. bilis Friday na agad! :) astig. ang bilis ng week.. i had so much fun lang siguro kaya feel ko ang bilis ng week na ito.

tagal ko nadin di naguupdate. super dami nang nangyari!!!

nung weekend. nagattend kami ulit ni Gege sa PRM meeting. nag-inventory kami. baka mag-sign up ako sa PR100. still think pa. tapos after watched Sukob w/ Mon, Gege, Lia, Anna, Stefa. Kenbob, Kendrick. :) grabe kaloka ung Sukob!!.. sobraa.. ahahahaha. nakakainis e. ahaha. Mon was so scared narin nga e. he was covering his eyes na. ahaha. after, hinatid kami ni Mon sa bahay ni Jeni for her bday party. super late na ung party eh. ahahaha. ang kulit!..
tapos went home mga 12.30am. ahahaa. Mon went sa bahay and stayed there until 2am. ahahha. sayaa.

Monday, we had our RECOLLECTION. :) sa Charles Huang Conference Center, Batangas. ang lamig! sobraa. bonding lang w/ BSN19. tapos went home mga 5.30. arrived in skul at that time. me and tj went home together. kulitan lang sa shuttle. ang tass nung seat, kaya nauuntog ako parati!.. hahaha. TJ nga pla is my NFF. ahaha. actually, we knew each other before pa pala. as in nung 2nd yr pa. ang galing he remembered me. ahahah. aun, since then,nung tinawag nia ako sa shuttle nung 2nd week of classes naging friends na ulit kami tas ngaun sabay na kami umuuwi, minsan pagpasok sabay din. at least di na boring. :) ang kulit kasi nun e. ahahaha. may common friends din kasi kami.

Tuesday. sabay kami pumasok ni TJ. P.E. aerobics! weee. ang saya ng aerobics. ahahaha. nothing much happened on that day. fun fun lang.

Wednesday. Wash day. sabay kami ulit pumasok ni TJ. ang kulit tlga nun. ahahaha. tapos YOF meeting nung U-break. tapos prelim namin sa english 100. ang dalii. haha. yabang ko. maaga kami dinismiss kaya sabay nadin kami umuwi ni TJ. ang baet nia. nilibre nia ako ng pamasahe. papunta chaka pauwi. ahahaha. weee. :) Mon went sa bahay. :) he just missed me kaya pumunta xa.

Thursday. mejo not in the mood. kasi ang init sobraa ng araw na toh. mejo away pa kami ni Mon kagabi. ang lungkot. i think he's mad parin til now. (Friday) kasi di pa xa nagttxt. :( lungkot. didn't mean to hurt him naman e. hayyyy.

tanga ko talaga di ako nagiicp kng ano ung mga dapat sbhn at hindi. grabe.

hayy, g2g na. need to go to my next class na. update ko nlng toh later. :)

be mine.

2006-07-24T19:30:00.000-07:00

grabe.. watta weekend. i love weekends talaga.

so what happened nung Thursday. uhm.. upto 9am lang kami. exam namin sa Filipino. 8-9am lang. tapos 8.15am tapos na ako. so, umuwi ako agad after the exam. tapos i went to Taft after. adventure. mag-isa lang ako! hahaha. nagapturo ako kay Jenny kung paano magpunta dun. so bahala na tlga ako nun. kadire pa nangyari sa akin sa bus. kasi when i went in, walang seat. so nakatayo lang ako, ung conductor sb may seat sa likod. so i went sa seat na un. may tumayo na guy na student din xa, sobrang namimilit xa na kunin ung seat nia. he was like talking to me the whole trip. kakairita!.. di ko talaga pinapansin. ang saya ko nung nakita ko na ung BenildE! nang makaalis na ako sa lecheng bus na un. haha.

aun, Ken was waiting for me sa Mcdo. tapos nilibre nia ako Mcflurry. hahaha. wee. Thanks Ken! :) neway, Gege txted me punta daw ako sa building nila. aun. nagpedicab kami ni Ken, w/ his friend. ang mahal infairness ha. 30pesos ung pedicab! kamusta naman un. tapos iniiwan na ako ni Ken dun w/ Gege. Pinakilala nia sa akin ung blockmate nia, c Cielo and Elaine. ang saya ng Caf nila. may AC. grr. sana ganun dn sa Dasma db?.. asa. haha. neway, we waited for Lia to come. tapos nung dumating na c Lia, pumasok na c Gege. ayaw nia mag-cut e! haha. loser un.

tapos me and Lia, went to UST na. ang saya. dinalaw namin c bebe Ances. tapos, pinakilala nia kami sa blockmates nia. and sa besh niang gwapo. haha. peace bebe. :) hahaha. :) tapos dinala nia kami sa dorm/boarding house nia. she lives there w/ Joyce and Jean. tapos dinala nia kami sa bhubie! hahaha. alavit. namimis ko na ang bhubie. promise. sana makabalik ulit ako dun. leche kasi sched ko eh. haha.

tapos nung Friday naman, 3 exams ko. may 3-hr. interval between sa mga exam. kamusta naman un. na-cancel pa ung exam namin sa english. haha. tapos ang dali lang ng last test namin, Logic. kaia mga 4.30 tapos na ako. i went to Town na, winew8 ako dun nila Lia at Gege. sabay kami ni Jekko. tapos aun, ikot ikot lang saglit. nakipagkita w/ Nicaye and Ray. tapos uwi na ako w/ Gege to get my things kasi overnyt ako sakanila. aun. ang kulit lang namin ni Gege. Mon went there sa house ni Gege. hehe. :) weee. :)

tapos umuwi na c Mon. nagpatawag pa xa sa akin. upto 1am magkausap kami. pasaway un. may pasok pa, di natutulog ng maaga. ehehe. Saturday, woke up 8am. kasi may swimming c Gege sa Pasay. sumama ako sknia. upto 11 un. tapos after went to Galle, met up w/ her blockmates. tapos nag LasaLLe Greenhills kami. haha. ang laftrip ng blockmates ni Gege, promise. saya. :) aun, kulitan lang doon. picture picture. tapos sumabay kami kay Denise upto Bicutan. tapos nag-taxi na kami ni Gege, Glen and Ara upto Town. nanglibre c Glen. weee. :) baet. :) aun. tapos tambay lang sa Town. may pinakilalang friend c Glen. tapos uwi na. hinatid c Ara sa Porch. tapos punta ako kila Gege to get my things tas uwi na ako. Mon was supposed to go here that night. pero because of something di natuloy. :( sad pero pagdating ko ng bahay knockdown na ako eh. mga 9.30pm tulog na ako. tas tuloy tuloy na ung tulog ko. haha. mejo nasungitan ko nga c Mon sa phone nun eh, nagpatawag kasi xa before ako matulog. Sorry. :) hihi. paggcng ko may sweet xang mesaj skn. awwww. :) hihi.

tapos Sunday, nag-Sunday prep kami ni Gege. 10am dapat nandun na sa Beda. pero 11am na kami dumating hehe. we made medals for the retreatants. tapos ininterview kami ni Kuya Ruther para maging PRM na kami. hihi. we love it. at last, nafeel na namin ang PRM! hehe. kapagod kasi ang dami namin ginawa sobraa. pero in the end, ang saya. kasi nakapag-serve ka ky God. :) tapos un dumating na ung ibang mga auxi and ung mga retreatants. :) kita ko c besh Gelo! yey. :) pati c Butch. Lester. Alain. and others. ang saya. :) namis ko cla! :) tapos went home mg 6pm. Mon went here. kawawa siya, he's super sick. dapat magsisimba kami pero sb ko wag nlng. pina-rest ko nlng xa dito. aun, tulog na tulog siya. hehe. :) tapos super init nia tlga. kawawa. :( tapos he told me something na sobrang dko nagets, kaia nagalit ako. un pala opposite ung pagkaintindi ko. bstaa, awww. :)

so kanina, pumunta ako sa bahay nila Mon. adventure. commute ako papuntang Soldiers. hahaha. :) buti nalang wala pasok. so un, i was with him lang d whole day. kawawa tlga xa. :( hayyy.. sana gumaling na xa. :(

sana walang pasok bukas!.. katamad. p.e. boo. wow, ngaun nlng ako ulit nag-blog ng ganito. i love it.

fill it please.

2006-07-19T09:01:00.000-07:00

hayy.. 19 ngayon. wala lang.

sobrang saya ko naman eh. promise. pero sobrang may kulang talaga eh. madalas na mangyari skn recently, sobrang yung happiness ko, todo na. pero naiicp ko bgla, na may kulang talaga. and isa lang un. may hinihintay lang ako na itanong nia sa akin. pero mukhang malabo nang mangyari un. :(

pinatungan pa ng lintik na algeb exam yan kahapon. grabe. nafifil ko tuloy na mahihirapan ako sa DLSU-D. waa. sobrang pamatay ung exam kahapon e. hayy, babawi nlng ako sa midterms. haha. :)

hayyy.. sana bulungan xa ni Lord. later nga pala dalaw kami ni gege sa Beda. kitakits kung cno man ang mga nandun! hahaha. :)

i'm scared.

2006-07-17T09:12:00.000-07:00

3pm pa pasok namin. prelim namin sa psych today. and upto 4pm lang ako today. yipee. :)

i colored my hair. :) together w/ gege. brown gold. haha. mukha akong sira. natrip-an ko lang kasi na magpakulay para new look. haha. Mon was like, bakit ka nagpakulay ng yellow?? haha. di naman yellow toh. haha. over naman un. hehe.

neway, walang pumapasok sa utak ko. kaya magbblog na muna ako. bored na ako e.

nakakatwa sa skul nung friday. me and my 2 other blockmates went for a walk.7pm na un. kasi maaga kami pnalabas sa bio-lab namin. sa OSH building dw namin, everynight may nagtitirik dw ng kandila dun. kasi sa likod nun morgue dw. scary noh? pinilit tlga ako nung blockmates ko. langya. i was scared to death. d ako marunong tumakbo na naka-heels! hahahaha. wala naman kami nakita pero my other blockmate, c feevee confessed na she was sensitive to these supernatural things. shocking men. lague pa naman kami magksama! waaaa. scary tlga. she was telling me na there was someone behind her. grabe. JM, my other blockmate, had to ruin talaga sa dorm nia sa loob ng skul. hahaha. freaky naman kasi. so, me and feevee went to the entrance na. joyce was there. sinamahan namin xa saglit, pero i had to go na. punta pa ako town nun eh. hahaha. ang kulit din nung day na un, pnagttripan ako ni jr a.k.a tricia. hehehe. :) kulit kulit. pero meron talaga super angas sa block namin. sobrang i want to tear his head off. hahaha. promise. tass ng tingin mo sa sarili mo chong. LOSER. haha.

aun. ano pb. wala na ako masabi.

ah! grabe i am so happy talaga ngayon. sana di na mag-end ang pagmamahal na toh. and xempre din saknia. sana totoo lahat. and sana it won't end na. kasi i forgot everything para maging ok na ang lahat, sana na-appreciate nia. pero alam ko naman na naappreciate nia eh. he's doing everything to make it up to me. siyempre ung ibang tao, iicpn na baka panakip lang ako. na rebound girl lang ako. pero hindi. kami lang siguro ni gege nakakaalam ng whole,detailed story. xempre alam din nung ibang jamala. pero c gege kasi nakakausap ko talaga araw-araw e. so aun. since summer til now, lam ni gege lahat ng nangyari sa amin. kaya love you gege. inspite all of the paglalayo na gngawa ko sknia, to the point na pinapaalis ko na xa sa buhay ko, he's still here. :) sobra na talaga napagdaanan namin. kaia sana we won't let go of this agad agad like before. i trust him.

pool of thoughts. waa.

2006-07-15T00:39:00.000-07:00

wow. i am so happy talaga. kasi love is in the air. bwahaha. :)

i'm loving school na rin. ang saya. kasi nalalabas ko na ang natatago kong kulit sa loob ko. nagiging walang hiya na ako. hahahaha. :) though may mga certain persons lang na sarap tajakan. ang yabang kasi. kala mo kng cno. sapakin ko xa eh! hmph.

pamatay ung practical test namin kaninang bio lab! langya yan o. ano bang klase un. sobrang career tlga. kala mo mga scientist kami. d naman! leche un. kainis. sisirain pa grade ko e. grr.

buti nalang nanuod na ako Lovewrecked after. after school, derecho town ako. haha. Bedan invasion nanaman sa town! ang dami nila. wee saya ko! pero nakakainis kasi they saw me in my yucky uniform. haha. un. i watched Lovewrecked w/ Mon. then after nagpadaan ako sa Mcdo. i want fries kasi. wait, i saw Jc de Vera pala sa Town. ang gwapo! grbe. hahaha. aun, tpos dumaan kami ni Mon sa house ng friend nia sa BF. tapos hinatid na nia ako dito sa bahay. :)

nga pala, prelim week na namin nxt week. naeexcite ako kasi ang dami ko free time!. kaya dadalaw ako Beda sa Wednesday. tapos dalaw ako Taft sa Thursday. wee. :)

hayy.. everynight may mga naiicp akong mga bagay bagay. daming pumapasok tlaga sa icp ko. sobraa. minsan naiinggit ako sa kanya, kasi naicp ko ang tagal niang nakasama ung taong mahal ko. pero minsan naiicp ko din na, d naman nagworkout. bsta dami ko tlga naiicp sobraa. minsan din, ayaw ko ng set-up na ganito. pero ok nadin kesa mawala xa db?,, haha. weird ko nanaman. bwahaha.

bsta i love him. period. ready to have a fresh start talaga. :)

LOVE.. never left me.

2006-07-05T20:23:00.000-07:00

*sigh*

yes, one really deep sigh yan. grabe, certain things have been going through my mind this past few weeks. since my mom left for the States, i feel like lague nalang akong nag-go sa mga decisions ko. pero i realized din naman na si mommy, guide lang siya. ako parin talaga ang bahala sa buhay ko. db?

grabe, first of all, COLLEGE. sobrang naalala ko yung sabi ni mommy na it's all up to me na talaga lahat ng mga ginagawa sa college. mga assignments, activities. super entirely DIFFERENT from highschool. pero at least, i can say na i'm enjoying my 1st year of college as a nursing student. grabe, nafifil ko yung pressure. grabe, i'm studying na everyday! and sariling sikap na talaga ung mga grades ko. kasi, let's admit nung HS, kopya galore tayo sa mga assignments at quizzes. haha. :)

masaya din ung mga blockmates ko. siyempre di mawawala ung mga di natin trip. ung bad vibes tayo sknia/sknla. hehe. maldita talaga ako. pero ganun talaga eh.

badtrip sira ung pc namin!.. kaya nakikiPC pa ako ngayon!.. di ko maUpdate songs ko sa iPod pati ung pix ko sa multiply. huhu. lungkot. :(

pero masaya nung friday. kasi nagkita ulit kami ng friendships!.. nag-cut pa ako ng class for them! haha. :) may concert sa Beda eh. baduy nga lang!.. haha. kaya nagTown nalang kami. :) cable car! na hinde naman kami pinayagang uminom. haha. di sila nag-serve!.. kaya bagsak namin Mcdo nlng. na nainis ako kasi of all the pipol naman db. nakita ko pa xa. grr. ok ok. wag na pancnn yan. baka maging issue pa. ;-p

Saturday. went to Manila with Mon. :p hinintay ko xa na matapos class niya. haha. :) tapos Mall of Asia kami. wee, natupad na ang pangarap ko na magMall of Asia. bwahaha. loser ako. haha. :) nagkita kami ni gege. nakakatwa kung bakit sya nandun. hahaha. bsta kaming tatlo magksma. tapos ate at Blue Wave. tapos umuwi na ako ng mga 6pm. :) aga noh? haha. loser nanaman ako. haha. :)

aun. kanina nga pala Berde Tayo sa DLSU-D. welcoming party for us, froshes. :) haha. baduy!.. kaya nag-town nalang ako!.. umuwi nalang ako. haha. grabe, hi to BSN19. wala lang. haha. :)

hmm. ano pa ba?.. i love the world today. haha. sana di na matapos ang kasiyahang kong ito. :) i love it. sana mag-Saturday na. weee. :)

sadness.happiness.ayayay.. gulo. haha.

2006-06-26T13:45:00.000-07:00

mommy left na last night. :c sad tlga. she was crying talaga last night. grabe, pinipigilan ko lang tlga. i have to be strong talaga eh. grabe, hirap. Mon went with us last night. sumama xa sa paghatid. mommy was like hugging him din and saying na alagaan dw ako ni Mon, and gwardiya ko dw c Mon. grabe, that scene. nakakatouch. hehe. :)

aun. inaasar nga ako ni Mon eh. ilabas ko na dw ung nararamdaman ko. masama dw ung tnatago ung pagiyak. haha. loko un eh. hay. aun.

grabe. i'm so sick ryt now. sobra. nahihilo ako, nilalagnat ako, sinisipon ako, inuubo ako at nasusuka pag kumakain. kamusta naman ako diba. d tuloy ako pumasok today. hay. hehe. :) wala magawa dito sa bahay. ang boring. bukas p.e. pa namin. sana gumaling na ako. kundi mabibinat ako bukas.

may concert sa Beda sa Friday!.. ang saya. :) pero baduy dw ung bands. oh well, baka magpunta ako dun. :) kaso upto 8 ang class ko pag friday. haha. gudluck skn. :p

i'm so confused. un lang. di ko makwnto kng y. pero CONFUSED ako. big time. hayyy. bsta nxt time, pag ryt time na. ssbhn ko na. ;-p

2006-06-24T15:04:00.000-07:00

i survived the 2nd week of school in DLSU-D. haha.

ung previous post ko, sad pa ako nun. xempre adjusting stage. first time ko kasing lumipat ng skul. i've spent my whole "schooling" life in Beda kasi. literally. haha. as in, naabutan ko ung 3 names ng Beda. haha. from Benedictine Abbey School, to St. Benedict College hanggang sa ngaung San Beda College Alabang na xa. haha.

neway, aun nga. this week happened so fast. di tulad ung last wik, sobrang all i think about is sana mag weekend na. pero ngaun, wow, weekend na!.. bilis. haha. sobrang saya nang wik na ito. although, every morning, tinatamad ako bumangon kasi commute ever lang ako. haha. pero pag nasa skul na ako, saya na! hehe.

ang saya kasi ng clasm8s ko. though, usually aral mode talaga sila. pero di naman sila mga KJ. haha. sobrang kahit Nursing students kami, we have fun parin. hassle nga lang ung sched ko. kasi pinaka-maagang uwi ko 5. so dna ako nakakapag-gimik after class. derecho uwi na ako. loser. haha. lalo na pag friday!.. kamusta naman un 8pm ang uwi ko. 8am-8pm ako sa skul. ahahaha. 12 hours sa skul. hapit!

pero masaya. lab namin kahapon. ang saya eh. nag-observe kami ng blood cells. haha. as in, my blockmate/groupmate had to prick her finger. astig. haha. xempre, unti unti ko na nalalabas ang pagkabakla ko. haha. nagugulat na sila sa akin. ang loko ko rin dw pala. haha. nagtitimpi lang ako nung una eh. dko na mapigilan eh. haha..

kahapon, sbay kami ni jekko umuwi. i met him nung orientation. dko xa blockmate. hehe. ang baet, nilibre ako sa Mcdo town. haha. :) tnx jekko. wee. haha. may loko akong blockmate, c greg a.k.a. sven (dunno kng san nya nakuha ung name na un.. hehe).. ang taba ko daw, mag-diet na dw ako. grr him. hahahaha. pero mabaet naman xa infairness. haha. kinokopya asynment ko. haha. :p kamusta dn naman ungiba kong blockmates, nagulat ako kahapon, may intrigue ndw samin. tsktsk. bad. haha. kng alam nio lang kng cno talaga ang type ni greg. haha. ;-p ang saya ng circle of friends ko.. haha. mga loka din. hahaha. :) kaya nalalbas ang kalokahan ko eh. hi jovelle, feevee, jm, ken, carlyn and joyce. hehe. :) hay naku. nakakaloka.

feel ko nxt wik. hassle mode na. waaa.

tnx to mon nga pala. sinundo nia ako sa Mcdo kagabi. bwahaha. true friend. wee. haha. :) takot ako magtryke sa gabi eh.. hahahaha. :)

ayy.. nalungkot na ako. last bonding day namin ngaun ni mommy. she's going to the States na kasi tomorrow. work na xa dun. :( ang lungkot.

buti nalang nanjan friends ko. promise. i miss you friend. i miss my friends. :)let's go out!.. sa friday! ung concert thinggy ng beda!.. :) punta tau seniors '06!!

missing every1.. :c

2006-06-14T23:48:00.000-07:00

nandito ako ngayon sa ERS building ng Dasma. hayyy.. 2nd day ko na ngayon. i made new friends. pero meron akong friendfriend tlga na xa ung super lague kong ksma. Name nia JM.. uhm, girl xa. hehe. di xa boy.
neway, ok naman ung skul ko. pero nothing compares to Beda parin. xempre kng sa standards, lamang talaga ung Dasma. pero kng sa mga pipol lang?? naku. I miss the Bedan noise! xobraa.. kasi naman diba, Nursing ako dito. so, ano pang ieexpect ko.. Serious pipol. Malas ko pa kasi late ako nagenroll kaia konti nlng ung clasm8s ko. kung baga, tira tira nlng ung amin. hehe. mamaya nga magAudition ako sa dance company dito sa Dasma. so late ako uuwi. grbe, gudluck talaga skn.
Basta nasesenti ako. ang dami kong namimiss!.. lalo na bedans.. grabe.. nxt time matino na blog na tlga. hehe. :)

excited

2006-06-07T15:04:00.000-07:00

yesterday was june 6, 2006. in short, 6-6-6.. scary noh?

it really was a 666 day for me yesterday dahil puro kamalasan nangyari sakn. to start the unlucky day, i was about to button my pants nung bglang napigtas ung button. so i had to find another one, ung gusto kong suotin na pants, di ko mahanap. so, kahit anong pants nalang sinuot ko kahapon. tapos di ako makatawid. grabe. so i had to wait for someone na pdeng masabayan tumawid. haha, funny tlga. di tlga ako marunong tumawid. :)

me, ances and anna went to UST khpon. ances needed to get her uniform sa UST. so sinamahan namin xa. after nun, we went to Lasalle. magkkita kami ni gege, ken and lia. :) dameh bedans! it's like nalipat ung Beda sa Taft. hehe. sa Mcdo taft kami nagkitakita. nakakalungkot nga eh. sana nagTaft nalang ako. para madameh Bedans. nakakamiss. hehe. aun, we waited for Lia to arrive, may class pa kasi xa. tapos nung dumating na xa, nagProvidence kami. tambayan sa may taft. tapos karaoke ever nanaman. naadik na kami swear! haha. nung Saturday kasi, nag-EGG kami sa Town nila, ances, lia and gege. karaoke parin. saya!.. hehe. nway, un saya sa Providence. enjoy tlga. after nung derecho Mcdo ult, kumain ulit tapos me, ken and gege went home na. Nagshuttle kami. tapos biglang nagyaya si ken na mag-sinangag express. so, uwi muna kami sa house ni gege tas after house ni ken. tapos tinamad na ako kaya sabi ko pabili nalang sa maid ung sinangag tapos kain kami kila ken. hehe.

ito ang nakktwa, edy dumating na ung food. si ken, nakakainis. ang DAMI pinapaalalang memories. hahahaha. eh nakakainis. ewan ko kng dahil dun kaia nawala ako sa sarili ko o talagang malas lng ako o talagang clumsy lng ako. kasi, dun kami kumain ni gege at ken sa room ni ken. tapos inaaus ko ung food, natabig ko ung tubig!.. edy nagkalat ung water, pinunasan na ni ken. tapos nag-pour ako ng water from the pitcher.. konti lng lumalabas.. ang ginawa ko, binuksan ko ung cover tas pinour ko.. bglang may super big block of ice na lumabas, nahulog sa floor. tawa tlga kami ng tawa ni gege. ang ot ko. so, basically, nagkalat lng ako sa bahay ni ken. hahahaha. aun, after nun uwi n ako. haha. kulit ng araw kahapon sobraa.

hayyy.. Orientation ko na bukas sa Dasma. excited na ako. haha.

these past few days, sobrang saya ko.. thank you sau kasi nagising na tlga ako sa katotohanan. i've thot about what you said, and yep, tama na tong nangyayari satin. i care for you, you care for me. :) fun. haha. :) at first i was confused, ngaun ang linaw na tlga. at clear na clear na tlga. :) weee. :) love you. haha

it's becoming harder and harder each day..

2006-06-01T12:12:00.000-07:00

so, it's been awhile since i last blogged.

i was kinda busy kasi.

so what happened na ba since my last blog?.. hmm. nothing naman. nung may 27.. i went to Batangas for the 1st death anniv of my ninong. i was with Tita Baby, Tita Teps, Tita Babes, Nay Mely and my fave cuz of all time, Anj. un. first nagdasal kami when we arrived sa cemetery. tapos we practically went sa whole of Bauan. hehe. after that punta Pacita. tapos late na kami, mga 10pm na kami nagpntang Pansol.

we were at a place called City of Springs :) boring kasi walang slide. pero fun narin. hehe. me and Anj sort of, had new friends. sort of, kasi di namin natanong un name. haham kamusta naman yun. :) tapos we went home na mga 5 ata un, tapos stopped by Pacita ulit to visit Mommy and Daddy Old. (a.k.a our grandparents sa father side) hihi. :) Gelo and Francis were there. weee!.. miss those little babies. cute cute. :) cousin namin un :)

tapos went home na. Anj slept here. then sinundo xa the next night :)

aun.

so, bumalik tayo kung bakit ganyan title ko.

minsan talaga ayaw ko na e. mommy told me, this shouldn't happen. but then, i realized that, i would be very unhappy if i told him to totally forget him. although i feel na, one of these days, mawawala na xa skn. kasi nakalmtan na nia ako.. but he told me, that would NEVER happen daw. hmm, sana.

before last night, i had one tingle HOPE in me na may chance. pero i realized again na walang pag-asa yung hope na un. at least, for now. kasi i still believe in FATE. so i decided, na what's going on right now? go with the flow nlng. na-prove ko naman na kahit anong gawin ko, he won't leave me eh. so that made me super okay na :)

hard to spell..

2006-05-23T13:57:00.000-07:00

everything's extra weird now.. super super extra extra weird..

di ko tlga maexplain.. kng bakit ganun.. i'm happy pero in a way, furious. kasi bakit ngayon lang narerealize yung mga ganung bagay.. kung talagang yun ang narerealize niya ngayon.. hmmm..

grabe when i heard those things.. i was stunned lang. NR tlga all the way. joke time na nga lang ako lague eh.. kasi yung utak ko pinipigilan na i-absorb lahat ng bagaybagay. at yung heart ko pinipigilan na mag-beat for him. as in, as much as possible, No na tlga.

i'm happy na kasi na ganito eh. i wanna start fresh. lalo na malapit na ang pasukan, new school na, new pipol. kaya akong may dalhin na something in my brain. kasi maloloka lang ako.

okie, nuf bout that.

grabe, watta trip to Dasma kami yesterday ni mommy. kasi sabi ko try namin magcommute papuntang Dasma, para mapractice ko na. so, when we arrived sa Town, ang ine-expect namin, may shuttle papuntang Dasma, sb kasi nla meorn dw ganun. aba, wala! so we rode this shuttle na papuntang SM Molino lang tapos we rode a little jeep, nakalimutan ko na kng ano tawag dun, tapos dnrop kami sa Robinson's Imus.. imagine! umabot na kami ng Imus, Cavite! haha.. tapos we rode a jeep tapos sobrang nung nakita na namin ung mga halaman at waterfalls, reaxon namin ni mami, "Hayy salamat! nakarating din!".. kasi ung mga halaman na yun, hudyat na nasa road na kami ng school. [musta naman un? ang lalim! hudyat! haha]..

aun. tapos nagenroll na ako. actually si Mommy gumawa halos lahat. haha. nakakatamad eh. tapos i got my sched na.. grabe! kamusta naman yung sched ko. ang gulo!.. i even have a sched na every Wednesday 8am-8pm ako! kamusta naman un! sobraa!.. haha. :) tapos ung bio ko na sub 6 hours! 2 hours lab ata tapos ung 4 hours naman lecture!.. un ang pagkakaintindi ko ah. ewan ko ba. un ung nakalagay eh!.. grr, sana naman hinde.

orientation namin on june 8. kaka-excite pero scary din. hehe. :)

aun. basta watta day kahapon. kapagod sa isip at puso. [yun!].. hehe. :)

natulog ako mga 4am na.. kasi nagusap pa kami ni ja sa phone. tapos nagwatch kami Desperate Housewives. un naman ung series namin. tapos na kasi namin OC3 :) pero wait, weird pala yung OC3 na un.. kasi hanggang cd6 lang ung meron samin, sobrang bitin. tapos nung tinignan namin sa Net, kulang pa kami 2 cds! haha. kaia pla weird ending kasi dpa un ung ending. haha. bibilhin nlng namin ung 2cds na un.

neway, hafta go na. :)

i missed manila :)

2006-05-21T13:38:00.000-07:00

yey, i'm back :)

grabe i really missed our house. haha. iba talaga pag nasa sariling bahay ka eh. hehe.

i really had fun when i was in Cebu. everyday lakwatcha :) yesterday nagswim kami. sa Cebu Beach Club. maganda xa, ang daming tao. astig may couple kaming nakita, negro at chinese. astig. anything happens talaga basta love. hihi. sweet. :)

we were here sa manila nang mga 8.30 am.. we left Cebu, mga 7.. :) i love plane rides.. sobra. lalo na when you're about to take off palang saya. :)

so yesterday, i went through my blog. since November '05, it's been him that i've been blogging about na pala. lakas!.. haha. hanggang ngayon, at this very minute xa parin. wow naman. from happy days to kasuklamsuklam days. haha. as gege said it. haha. oh well, sobrang now, new me na ako. promise :)

tomorrow, enroll na ako sa Dasma. weee.. :)

new layout nga pala ako, like it?

reminiscing..

2006-05-18T17:29:00.000-07:00

so i was going through my Multiply and i ended up looking at all of my albums there. grabe ang addict ko talaga sa pix. haha..

so, yun. i ended up reminiscing nadin. Pictures really are worth a thousand words. and i've got lots of them. haha. :)

grabe, i'm so sad and happy at the same time. coz it just came to me na i really am leaving Beda na. my home since i was a little kid na walang alam until i've grown into a mature one. grabe, sad pla noh?.. to think na i can't wait to get the hell out of Beda, i can't deny na mamimis ko talaga yung school na un. Lots of memories talaga. :)

memories na i'm sure never ko makakalimutan and talagang i've learned so much from them. Mamimis ko talaga yung mga Bedans.. sobraa!..

alam ko naman na wla paring limutan eh. waaa, senti mode tlga ah. haha. :)

3 days to go, i'm going home na!.. may friend na ako sa Dasma. wee.. naeexcite na tlga ako.

so bye Beda, hello Dasma ako ngayon. :) haha.

oh no..

2006-05-16T23:42:00.000-07:00

it's so easy pala noh.. once you get the hang of it.. :)
i know he has to deal with anything by himself naman.. he's a big boy na noh!.. haha :)
grabe, we watched Poseidon kanina. ano ba yan, kala ko naman madaming role si Fergy ng Black Eyed Peas. sus, kumanta lang xa doon tas namatay na!.. haha :) nu ba yun. pero it was an okay movie naman.
5 days to go. uuwi na kami! sobrang i want to go home na.. niyayaya ko na mami ko, pero naka-book na kami eh. haha. di naman sa d ako nageenjoy dito.. sobrang enjoy nga dito eh.. and i'm having fun talaga. pero nothing beats manila parin. haha. miss ko na kaya mga tao doon! haha :)
so ja and i planned on something. xcited na kami. haha. ssshhh lang kami eh. :)
anyway.. grabe i don't know bakit nafifil ko toh ngayon.. i want to get to know someone better. he's an old friend. well, special someone i guess. and i don't know how to start. i'm afraid sa mga taong magrereact eh. yun kasi nakakainis e, maxadong alam ng mga tao yung buhay ko.. kaya sobrang na-coconcious ako sa bawat galaw ko and decision.. kaya di ko alam talaga.. natatakot ako sa magiging reaxon ng mga kybgan ko..
waaa..

i realized something..

2006-05-16T14:58:00.000-07:00

last night.. my mom and tita were talking about me and him. tapos sobrang my tita was outraged. kasi she didn't know the real reason about "something". it was only last night that she knew. our family is kinda close, esp. me and my mom kaia sobrang affected ang lahat pag may naaabuso sa amin, or naagrabyado. [whew, lalim ah].. haha
..

so anyway, my tita is confused.. kasi bakit daw may connection pa daw kami, in spite all of the things that happened.. basta dameh nia sinasabi kahapon.. she wasn't talking to me, she was talking to my mom, pero siyempre, I was just a divider away from them, so i overheard. haha. aun, so it was just last night that i started to think of myself naman. na may karapatan akong magalit, lumayo or whatever. coz it started to come over me.. the lies that all these time, he kept on saying to me. if they were true, then ok.. pero it's so hard to know if somebody's telling the truth na.. esp. in my case, na-trauma na tlga ako ngayon. sobra.

dameh nagparealize skn yesterday. like, i was watching season 3 of the O.C.. tapos there's this character doon, si Johnny, hu wants Marissa out of his life, kasi ito naman si Marissa, kahit may BF na, she's being nice parin to Johnny, being sweet to him parin. alam naman niyang in love si Johnny saknia tapos pinapainlove parin nia lalo si Johnny coz of what she's acting towards him. db kakainis? so, no choice si Johnny, he told Marissa to stay out of his life na muna. Tama naman yun db?

kind of ganun ang nangyayari sa akin.. though, mas malaki yung kasalanan nung akin, and i'm so stupid i still believe na everything's going to be ok.

my mom kept on telling me na i should let go. i should move on. and yeah, masasabi ko nakamove on na ako. :) basta di ko lang maintindhan lahat ng nangyayari. di ko masabi sa blog eh. kasi sb nga sa song na 241, "somebody owns you now".. so i should be careful with my words.. :) sa amin nalang siguro yung mga nangyayari parin until now. or malapit na matapos na pangyayari. haha. :)

ewan. sige, ttfn. tata for now. haha. corny ko. :)

naman eh..

2006-05-15T00:57:00.000-07:00

kamusta naman siya diba? ang wierd talaga.. just when i thought na wala na siya.. bigla xa paparamdam.. don't get me wrong, sobrang oo, i admit nasiyahan ako kasi naaalala niya parin ako.. pero ang wierd nia ha.. pinancn ko na nga siya tapos biglang pinangungunahan niya yung nararamdaman ko.. dko naman pinipilit sarili ko. hayy.. oh well, sobrang watever he says dun nalang ako..

anyway, i've been reading a lot lately. latest kong natapos yung "The Breakup Diaries".. sobrang i can relate, though dun sa book, she sorted things out na.. ako, hanggang ngayon, naka-hang parin yung story ko. gets?.. basta yun. ngayon i'm reading "Good Woman Blues".. ok naman siya. :)

new haircut nga pala ako. siguro, one way din ito to let go of my past. ewan ko kung ano connection ng buhok ko doon, basta once i had bangs na, sobrang i sort of felt different.

so, God.. sobrang help me naman. once again, i'm in this phase nanaman. confused nanaman ako. pero dna maxado.. d katulad dati, once he pops into my mind, naloloka nanaman ako, and the memories rush back in. ngayon, i don't get that feeling anymore. so, yeah, improving na ako :)

i'm really glad he understands my situation :) sana no hard feelings talaga. :)

i'm so ok.. :)

2006-05-13T14:53:00.000-07:00

wow.. tagal ko na hindi nakakapagblog.. :) hihi..

so, i'm really having fun.. no worries.. no problems.. pure fun lang talaga. :)

i went to Bora.. i celebrated my 17th birthday there. (yep, i'm already 17! hehe.. one year to go.. i'm of legal age na! yipee).. haha..

we were there until may 8.. super fun talaga. on our way there, we rode this Boracay funship. astig ung barko. we arrived at Caticlan, mga 7.30am.. then we rode a bangka papaunta sa island of Boracay. :) kakainis pa ung nangyari, nakadating na kami sa place namin, when mommy realized na we lost yung plastic bag na ang laman mga flipflops namin.. ok lang sana kung ung flips lang kaso, kasama ung Chucks ko!!.. waa.. super naiiyak na ako kasi may sentimental value ung chucks ko na yun.. and man, it's expensive ha!.. buti nalang they found the bag. grabe watta relief. :)

anyway, we went island hopping na sobrang nakakakaba kasi super lakas ng waves,.. pero fun. i went snorkeling.. well, sort of, wala kasing snorkel. i just had my life vest on and then i dove. astig, there were so many coral reefs!! and colorful fishes.. dude, ang deep. scary.. hehe. pero saya!.. :) no wonder our country is kasali sa big aquarium sa States na may mga reefs natin. :) coolio. tapos i went pasalubong shoppping sa Puka Grande. tapos nag-banana boat kami! boy, was it über-fun.. grabe!.. tapos i rode a speed boat! woohoo.. saya talaga. tapos siyempre nothing's more fun than what they call as "Boracay nights".. hehe. :)

i went with my mom, tita and tito. we sat on beanbags on sand.. :) then may mini table.. tapos sinuwerte kami coz Orange and Lemons performed. :) and sa cabin namin, may pbb 24/7!.. haha. astig noh?.. so, go pbb lang ako!..

and siyempre.. pictures are never forgotten.. check it out sa multiply ko. :)

anyway, on may 8, derecho kami Cebu. so i'm here now. :) hanggang may 21 kami dito. nga pala, on our way here, nag-ship ulit kami.. may nakita ako look alike ni papa aldred ko sa PBB.. haha.. :) he was nice.. haha..

i've been here sa Cebu for 5 days. and so far, i'm having fun.. :) may Ayala center dito, the katumbas of our very own Town. :) pero nothing beats ATC parin. hehe.. SM cebu rocks!!.. yesterday kasi we went there and sinuwerte kami!.. 4 bands in one day!.. like imago, sandwich, mojofly and 6cyclemind. yeah, free concert.. i was like super hyped!.. all you have to do is buy something sa penshoppe, and you can go in na.. :) hayy.. super love Ney of 6cycle... wee! he's great. :)

so, d na maxado detailed yung vacation ko.. i'm sure i bored you guys. haha.. can't wait to go back.. i miss my friends na! :) hihi.

when i come back mageenroll na ako sa Dasma. so c ya guys there. :) mwa mwa :)

i'm leaving. haha

2006-05-05T10:26:00.000-07:00

i'm leaving na later for Bora.. then on may 8 go kami Cebu. i'm coming back, may 21. :) kahit pilipinas parin yun, malayo parin sa mga love ko yun. hehe. mamimis ko talaga kayo.

especially.. jamala. and other pipol na super close sa heart chuva ko. hehe. :)

i'm sure naman may mga Net cafe dun.. so YM tau mga guys. :) mwa mwa mwa.

grr.. nasad nanaman ako..

2006-05-03T19:44:00.000-07:00

so, 3 days nalang, birthday ko na..

2 days to go, aalis na ako papuntang Bora and Cebu..

somehow, excited ako.. siyempre, mapapalayo na ako sa lahat..

sana matuloy si bebe ances.. para may ksama ako sa Bora.. as in pls pls.

nawiwierduhan ako ngayon. sa akin. sa lahat. sa ewan. grr.

help.

thought everything will be fine..

2006-04-30T21:20:00.000-07:00

tagal na pala ako hindi nagbblog..

badtrip kasi.. ung Net namin sa bahay hindi pa ayos.. so now i'm here at my tita's house.

anyway...

sb ko magiging matapang ako.. sabi ko kakayanin ko lahat.. at kung dumating man yung araw na yun, alam ko na strong na ako at matatanggap ko na..

pero hindi. sobrang mas lalo lang ako pinahihirapan..di ko alam kung pano aalis sa situation na toh.. mag-1mo. na bukas.. pero i'm still stuck on what happened.. bakit ba.. i'm doing things naman to ease the pain, i'm forcing myself na masanay na sa nangyayari ngayon.. at yung current relationship ng mga tao tao.. pero bakit walang pagbabago sa akin..

sobrang i wish na mapalayo na ako dito.. can't wait for Bora and Cebu.. at least, in that 3 weeks, siguro naman makakamove on na ako.. whoever's gonna read this blog, don't get me wrong, di ko gustong layuan ka, pero i think that's what's best for me.. i know na maiintindihan mo naman ako eh. we talked about this na. :)

yesterday was our class outing. it was fun, kupal lang yung caretaker, but it was fun. :) we went to Pansol, Laguna. sa house ng tita ko. 15 kami. :) saya naman. bonding bonding. yun. sayang the other's weren't able to go with us. :( gege went with us. hehe. d naman 47 yun eh. haha. pero ok lang yun. went home mg 7.. tapos 10 ako nakarating sa house. xempre dna detailed kung wat happened, just being careful. :)

aun. so on may 5, i'm going to Bora and Cebu. i'll be coming back na on may 21. this will really be the right time for me to get my mind off of him, memories, bla bla bla. but i'm glad we're friends. and nothing really changed, except the girlfriend-and-all-the-time-he's-mine part. *wink wink*
and as long as he's happy, happy narin ako. :) wel, that's life. you just have to learn to give and take. and of course, to forgive.

so, sana makapagblog pa ako before i go. and wish me luck talaga. :)

sana nobody will react nalang sa blog nato.. ok? i just need to vent. that's all. and to him, don't worry i'll always be here as your friend or maybe your best bud.. i'll help you in any way. :) if you need me. :)

can't wait to go to Bora!

2006-04-30T12:14:00.000-07:00

5 days to go and Bora, here i come!

haha. sori na.. first time ko pupunta dun eh.. yung fun part pa is, makaksama ko c bebe ances ko. yey!.. boy hunting na ito! my bebe and i really nid this trip. haha. mga sawi sa pag-ibig?.. haha.

we've been watching everynight yung One Tree Hill. Second season na kami. grabe yung story ng 1st season, may part dun na nakakarelate ako, big time. kamusta naman ang one tree hill diba?.. haha..

so, i'm proud to say, i've moved a step forward last night. on the moving on part. woohoo. :) step forward palang. leche hirap. pero nagpapaksaya naman ako.. it doesn't mean naman na porket may sad part in me, d na ako magpaparty, haha. no way. :)

bsta kahit ano naman mangyari, i'm here to make you laugh. sabay parin tau tatawa and talk about nonsense stuffs. haha. :)

i can do this.. :)

2006-04-20T14:39:00.000-07:00

ay naku.. i hate this!

tntreat akong parang bata ng nanay ko. nakakainis. kasi naman.. Stefan invited us to go with them [Mendiola boys] sa Calatagan, Batangas. as in, pabor samin yung outing. eh my mom was like, "No, that's far!".. ni hindi man lang pakinggan yung sinasabi ko.. tinalakan lang ako ng tinalakan.. tapos may outing section namin, xempre swimming. i couldn't swim dw!.. d ako pinapayagan ni mommy if she's not with me. o san pa kayo? kamusta naman ako.. baby ba ako? grrr super.

ok ok. tama na yan.

guys.. wat if dumating yung point sa life nio na hrap na hrap na kayo, you wanted to quit, but when that person talks to you again, sobrang mawawala yung balak mong mag-quit..?? anong gagawin nio?..

kasi yun nafifil ko ngayon eh..

gusto ko naman yung nangyayari ngayon.. at least friends na kami.. and nakaktulong ako saknia.. pero ngayon ok na lahat.. isipin ko naman sarili ko diba?..

kaia yun.. kung mababasa mo toh.. alam ko naiintindihan moko.. gusto ko maging hapi ka muna with her.. :) w/o me.. ako? relax relax muna alone.. try to understand things.. absorb things.. para when i get back, ok na.. diba?.. basta take care nalang sayo. :) pag may problem ka.. dito parn naman ako eh.. :)

slowly forgetting :)

2006-04-15T14:33:00.000-07:00

hayy.. sarap ng feeling na walang kaaway.

pero xempre im still hurting, pero para sa akin?.. kalimutan nalang lahat, kesa magkagulo pa ang lahat ng buhay ng mga tao. db? :)

all are friends now. may konting problema pa, pero all we need is time.. Time heals all your wounds and hurting db?..

i remember the line: "You always do crazy things when you're in love.." from the movie Hercules. when Meg was about to die because she saved Herc from the falling pillar. It applies to my life right now. No, i didn't save a hero from a falling pillar.. but what i'm doing is, just making him happy. though it hurts me so much, it's really ok. :) sincerely. :) gusto ko talaga lahat happy. my selfish days are over. :)

so, help help lang kasi i know, at aaminin ko, may mali ako. (yes, inamin ko na sa wakas!.. tama na ang pagiging plastic..).. dapat lang talaga magintindihan ang mga tao.. para walang nasasagasaan na kng cno man.

kaia, pipol. we can do this!.. :) we just have to be strong and believe na in time, everything will be alright. :)

go me!

2006-04-14T16:50:00.000-07:00

start na summer ko. pero tuloy tuloy parin ang kalbaryo ko.

nakanang yan. ang lalim ng word. hehe.

oh well, yesterday ngpunta kami pansol,laguna. :)

sa splash mountain!.. nakakatawa.. yung una dapat sa Monte Vista kami.. tapos parang familiar yung place. yun pala yung resort na jologs na pnuntahan namin nung 2nd yr!.. haha. woah, may memories ako dun. haha.

nwei, aun splash mountain kami with family. pati sa side ng lola ko. :) swimming galore kami. chaka SLIDE!! sa westin kasi, sira daw ung slide!.. kaia d ako nagswim nun, la kasi slide. kahapon ang dameh slidE! weee!.. may BIG SLIDE pa. as in saia!.. you have to pay 100pesos para magamit yung slide na malaki. eh d ako kuntento sa maliliit na slide lang, so go ako dun. 2geder with my little pinsans. haha. ung slide parang slide sa SPLASH ISLAND. ang saya.

kahpon, naklmtan ko for awhile yung problema ko. haha. saya!.. pero nung nagOL ako kninang umaga. woah. may nakita ako. haha. *ok ok wag na pancnn maxado mimi..* pero nanggagalaiti ako. pero pigilan ang sarili. hehe.

nagsstart na ang summer ko. GO!.. para maklmtan na ang lahat. wee. :)

sige, magsama kau.. mga kupal

2006-04-08T12:15:00.000-07:00

sobrang you made me believe that you're different from the others..

sobrang you made me look like a fool..

ang insensitive mo.

you always said to me, how much i changed you.. how much you loved me.. how much you value me.. you even told me that i was a treasure, that i don't deserve being hurt..

but what?

you are just like the other guys.. the one wherein, they put their best foot forward pag nanliligaw o pumoporma, yun pala may hidden agenda..

i'm starting to believe your ex na tuloy.. lahat ng mga sinasabi nia sau nuon, na kala nia iba ka sknla..?.. ako din eh, kala ko iba ka saknla.. akala ko you won't do anything to hurt me.. yun pala, yung ginawa mo sa ex mo na yun, magagawa mo din sa akin.. super bad.

sb mo pa, yung unang unang lumabas sa bibig mo, yung mga salitang "Hinding hindi kita sasaktan..".. tutuparin mo.. you even told me that nung nagdedecide na tayong magbryk.. pero anong ginawa mo? sa kania ka prin bumalik.. yung babaeng kinekwento mo skn na pilit mo nang nililimot dahil ako na ang gusto mong mahalin..

..na sabi mong nalimot mo na dahil nga dumating na ako sa buhay mo..

yung malupit pa dun, alam natin ang history nung babaeng yun.. alam mo, alam ko. at for your own good, dko na ipaglalantaran yung mga sinabi mo sa akin about her..

i don't know bakit ka naging ganyan.. usapan pa natin tau ang magksama sa Gradball.. pero anong ginawa mo?.. pinaasa mo lang ako.. if only you knew ung hirap ng magsbi sa waiter na, "wag mo kunin yung seat na yan.. kasi may uupo jan".. tapos yun pala, may kasama ka nang iba bigla..! galeng mo naman..

when i looked at you that night.. i didn't see the boy i knew nung 3rd and 4th year days ko.. yung palabirong lalake, yung seryosong magmahal na lalake.. when i looked at you that night, you we're so different.. parang dna kita kilala.. and the way you looked at me, parang you were happy kasi i saw you w/ anoder girl.. and yung nakakhurt pa, wala kang ginawang way para ma-ease yung pain na nararamdaman ko.. parang wala kang pakielam kht na nasaktan mo ako ng todo todo..

i don't know kng ano pa ang dapat kong isipin ngayon.. diko alam kng habang tayo ba, kayo na.. di ko alam talaga..

to the girl, sana inicp mo naman ung sarili mo.. kahit papano kaibigan moko, we say hello to each other.. tapos gaganianin moko?..

d ako nangangaway.. i can't think of a better way to make you two feel how much you've hurt me.. lalo na sau, kasi nagkaron tau ng friendship na tlgang akala ko ivavalue mo.. nagkaron tau ng deep na samahan, pero wala lang sayo. sino ka ba?? anong nangyari sau.. bat ka naging gnian??.. sobrang nakaka-disappoint..

you even made up excuses.. sa break-up.. nafeel ko pa na concern ka pa sakin, na ayaw mo akong mahurt when you leave Pinas.. yun pala may 3rd party.. dko tuloy alam kng ano ba talaga yung totoong reason..

ang ganda ng pakitungo ko sayo.. pati pamilya ko sobrang baet sayo. tas gaganianin mo lang kami. kapal.

sana marealize mo lahat ng ginagawa mo. you've hurt two girls this year.. ewan ko kung hobby mo ba yun o ano. nafeel ko na yung nafil nung isang babaeng sinaktan mo din. masakit pala talaga. kaia sa isang girl na yun, SORRY sa nagawa ko noon.

bahala na talaga si Lord sayo.

can i die now?

2006-04-05T19:41:00.001-07:00

hell..

sobrang i'm going through hell right now..

it's just now that i've felt so much pain.. as in, it's hard pala noh? i realized na through the years, i've hurt so many people.. na i was so selfish, gusto ko ako lang ang masaya.. kaia narealize ko na yung kinilos ko nuon is really bad.. kasi i didn't mind what other people may feel sa mga things na ginawa ko sakanila.. sa mga guys na, alam kong they felt na d ako seryoso sa kanila, kasi when i feel na ayaw ko na, aayaw nalang ako bigla without hearing out their thoughts.. sorry doon..

sinasabi ko ito ngayon kasi, kung ano yung nafil nilang sakit noon, yun ang nararamdaman ko ngayon..

i've never felt talaga yung ganitong sobrang sobrang pain.. kaia parang naging lesson narin sa akin itong nangyayari sa akin ngayon.. na i should never take others feelings for granted.. kasi importante rin siyempre yung nafifil nila.. hinde lang yung kung ano yung nafifil ko..

talagang you have to experience those things muna, bago mo marealize ang lahat..

yup, i admit. mixed emotions ako ngayon. nandiyan yung, anger, hatred, embarassment, sadness.. puro negative emotions db?.. pero at the end of the day, when you remember those super sweet and happy memories, bumabalik yung softness ng heart, in short, yung LOVE.. kaya hirap talaga kalimutan..

sayang kasi, pati yung friendship nasira.. we've built a very unique friendship, pero nasira dahil we thought getting in a relationship would make us feel yung security and yung feeling na, di ako mawawala sknia, d xa mawawala skn.. pero it just made things complicated..

now, i don't have him..

and that super hurts..

sobrang pinaglaban namin yung isa't isa.. sa mga naninira sa amin, we didn't mind them kasi alam naming malapit na nga maggraduate, mawawala din sila.. it hurts sobra, kasi it suddenly stopped.

we were super loving each other tapos biglang, STOP.

the reason talaga of our break-up is reasonable. decision naming dalawa. hirap i-explain. in time, malalaman nlng ninyo un.. pero i wasn't happy tlga w/ that decision.. parang ako, oo nalang, sige. yung ganun.

i'm sad ngayon kasi for almost 2 years.. we're there for each other.. not as lovers, but as friends lang.. tapos close, gang sa nagkarelaxon na nga kami..

i will surely miss his company..

wala na akong kakausapin in the evening.. yung late night calls.. wala na.. our bonding sa bahay, where he goes home na ng super duper late.. our jamming sa bahay, na nagiimbento xa ng tunes sa piano namin, yung patuloy niang pagexplain sakin ng meaning ng euro na car, yung dreams namin, yung pasulpot sulpot naming senti moments, yung torture kiliti nia sa akin, yung surprises nia sa akin, the way he wants me to hug him super tight, the way he suddenly kiss me on the cheek, the stolen "PDA's", his super soft lips, his chinky eyes, his breathtaking smile, ung kabaliwan nia, the way he sings, sobrang feel na feel nia talaga yung song, the way he imitates the A1 video, gosh that's super laftrip, yung paggaya nia ng mga commercial, sobrang commercial boy yan eh, yung minsang pangttrip nia sa akin, yung hirits nia, yung sobrang concern nia pag may nawawala akong bagay, (he's super organized kasi, and talgang maalaga sa gamit, exact opposite ako.. hihi), yung pangigil nia sa akin, the scent of his car, yung mga plans nia for his car na talagang nagpaint pa xa dito sa house..pag pinapahamak nia ako ky mami, pagudshot kasi yan eh. hehe. and so on and so forth...

dameh pa yan.. sobrang nasasad na kasi ako, when i remember everything.. kaia tama na. the hurt is too much..

sobrang i just wish everything will be normal again.

tama na muna ang sadness..

on a happy note, i passed the interview sa LaSalle Dasma.. enroll nako sa may.. yey! may skul nko, Nursing pa. :) saia.. :)

Graduate na ako!.. woohoo..

bukas gradball.. gudluck talaga sa akin. :(

can i die now?

2006-04-05T19:41:00.000-07:00

wala tlgang continuous happiness sa buhay ko...

2006-04-03T18:10:00.000-07:00

life can be so unfair talaga.. minsan nasa taas ung tinatawag na "wheel of life".. currently, mine's nasa bottom..

everything seems so perfect, pero biglang it all had to end.. as in sudden stop talaga.. hindi mo maintindihan kung bakit biglang ganun.. 4 months. sobrang bilis. and di mo maiimajin na it'll all end so soon..

it was both our decision.. pero honestly, ako, d bukal sa loob ko ung decision na yun. pero i had a feeling talaga na he's gonna be happy if no pressure muna, so yeah, i gave him his freedom.

what i'm going through now is super hirap talaga.. pero sobrang tintry ko talaga ung very very best ko to forget him.. hindi totally, kasi mahirap yun and sobrang he became a very important person to me.. hanggang ngayon parin naman eh.. mahirap siya tanggalin sa "system" ko..

we talk paren.. pero mafifil mo talaga na as friends nalang talaga.. masakit talaga.. ang complicated kasi ng reason.. when pipol ask me, i don't know kung ano sasabihin ko kasi honestly, dko ma-explain yung reason nung break up..

i try my very best to understand mon talaga.. sobrang mahal ko siya kaya kung ano yung alam kong gusto niya, binigay ko.. and yes, i think, freedom yun. masakit na masakit talaga, pero ganun talaga ang buhay.. :(

sana i-help ako ni Superfriend to forget him talaga.. :(

bored.bored.bored

2006-03-23T18:43:00.000-08:00

yey!.. :) i'm so happy.. :)

nung monday, practice practice lang ng baccalaureate songs.. dumating nawin mommy ni baby, si Tita Leila.. (oh no. nag-tita? hehehe.. shy ako).. hehehe.. tapos yun. medyo badtrip pero ok narin.

tapos tuesday, me, gege, jeni and anna lang ang pumasok. went to town with baby, he got his phone. pina-open line kasi. tapos tambay lang sa efrens then hinatid niya ako sa house. :) tambay lang muna here sa house, nagrest siya kasi he's going to wait for his mom, susunduin niya kasi sa alabang.

wednesday, didn't go to school. i bought my white shoes na for the graduation ceremony. went home mga 5 pm. and then went to Ruins then talked to baby sa fone pagkauwi then senti mode nanaman kami sa text namin kagabi.. :)

grabe, may doggie na ako!.. Tootsie name nia.. :) boy siya.. hehe.. :) 3 months old.. :) tootsie, kasi tootsie roll ang fave candy ng dad ko noon and yun din yung binigay skniang nickname.. so yun.. :) ang cute!.. ito siya o.. :)
ang cute noh?

hihi.. :)

bumiili nawin ako new phone sa wakas.. :) sony ericsson siya, ung walkman fone.. W550i.. :) ang cute.. :)

haha.. saia. :) la lang.. :)

sad sad life

2006-03-21T07:42:00.000-08:00

i'm sad.. :(

it's our 4th month together! :)

2006-03-19T13:16:00.000-08:00

life sucks... NOT!..

siyempre i have my baby right by my side.. grabe he really loves me.. :) sobrang sweet yung gnawa nia skn ngayong monthsary namin.. it's simple though, but the idea was so sweet.. :) ang sweet talaga.. he was in Charles' birthday party sa house ni JM last night.. i was so pissed, dunno why, maybe because i miss him so much.. kaia bawat text skn ni baby, nasusungitan ko siya.. like, there were exclamation points at the end of every sentence.. basta pag namimis ko yun, i get irritated easily.. pati nga si gelo, nasungitan ko eh.. (sorry sorry).. tapos when i woke up.. i had like, 15 or 18 new messages.. some where gudmorning mesajes from various people.. yung iba # lang, yun pala it was from my baby's friends.. yung mga mesaj,, "Happy monthsary daw sabi ni ramon.. mahal na mahal ka daw niya".. tapos iba't ibang tao yung mga nagsbi.. tapos nagsosori skn c baby.. wala naman talaga siyang kasalanan eh.. :) i just miss him so so much.. and lintek ung nonstop.. d gumagana.. waaa.. :(

aun.. ok na ako ngayon.. sobrang saia ko ngayon.. :)

Happy 4th monthsary baby! we have a long way to go!.. we can do this.. i love you soOoo much! :)

foodtrip!

2006-03-17T20:38:00.000-08:00

ang sarap ng araw today!.. kasi yesterday niyaya ko c baby na magSEX.. as in Sinangag EXpress!.. kala nio kung ano noh? haha.. :)

yun. late kami nila gege, nicaye and jen.. kasi naman nag-lag ung phone ko.. hindi ako nakakarecieve ng text.. eh usapan namin, ngayong 1-4pm na pasok namin, sabay kami kay nicaye, eh since ung house ko malayo kila nicaye, pupunta ako sa Tarlac Rice dito sa BF para hintayin sila nicaye.. haha.. :) tapos nagsidatingan ung mga mesajes ko.. eh 12.45 na un.. na papunta na daw sila.. so text ako ky gege, bat ang late nila umalis.. so nagpatawag na ako ng trike.. while i was waiting, tumawag si jenny skn, sb knina pa dw sila nasa tarlac rice.. so ako, uminit na yung ulo ko, kasi hindi man lang nagttxt ng maaga.. tapos kupal pala fone ko topac.. sb ko wag na nila ako hintayin, i rode the trike na, and then gege called me naman, sb susunduin nlng daw nila ako.. sb ko nakasakay na ako ng tryke sb ni gege, stop daw ako sa tarlac rice.. natawa ako hinahabol nila yung tryke ko!.. hahahaha.. grabe laftrip talaga.. they were shouting out "Mimi!" talaga sa labas ng window.. grabe. laftrip talaga..

dinistribute na yung grad pics namin! sa wakas! :)

after classes, me and mon went to SM to buy paint for his car.. after that Sinangag Express na kami.. tnreat nia ako.. sobrang he knows kasi how much i wanted to try to eat there.. so, nung niyaya ko siya yesterday, oo agad siya and tnreat pa nia ako.. hihi.. baet!.. ang sweet nia win, pnagawa nia ung summary nung report ko sa Obra ky jere.. nagulat ako binigay niya nlng sa akin bgla.. tamad kasi ako gumawa nun eh.. haha.. :) eh isa sa mga requirements un for our clearance for Filipino.. siya na rin daw papaXerox nung sa acetate for the report din.. wee.. :)

baet talaga ng super baby ko!.. :)

bukas tin2, yan2, tita and mama (my lola) are coming home!.. :) from cebu.. :) xcited na ako to see them.. hihi. :)

mas backstab day ito!.. haha.. :)

2006-03-15T19:00:00.000-08:00

hahaha.. kulit ng day na ito.

kahit mejo d sulit yung day for me and my baby.. saya parin.

Recollection ng Seniors ngaun. 8-12pm paren ung time namin. late si baby dumating. mga 9.30 na ata yun. tabi kami sa Recollection. ang kulit nung speaker namin. buti nalang laftrip siya, hindi boring yung recollection!.. you go Sir Arun Gogna!.. haha.. :) tapos may activity after na you have to dip your finger sa water, tapos parang Ash Wednesday kasi magddraw ng imaginary cross sa forehead of the person/s who have touched your life during your HS years. like, people you love and stuff. so Jamala went up on stage. tapos isa isa, we drew imaginary crosses on each others foreheads w/ the water. baby went up , too.. and then nilagyan niya win ako. tapos we went back sa seat namin. sb nung speaker, mag-thank you daw sa mga taong nagpasaya sa inyo. baby hugged me!.. saglit lang kasi baka ma-PDA pa kami!.. hihi. c baby ang kulit, nangigil sobra sa akin ang cute ko daw na tipaklong! loko yung baby ko na yan! haha. ok lang, at least cute!.. boo!.. haha.. :)

aun. so gotta go na. tomorrow ulit! :)

backstab day ba ito? haha. :)

2006-03-14T21:45:00.000-08:00

hayy.. saia! bonding with the kada today.. we watched Last Holiday.. dko natapos kasi i had to leave ng 2pm para kami naman ni baby ang magbonding. pero mga 4pm i went back sa Town with baby. un, met up with the girls, para balik kami beda with baby.. hinatid nia kami dun. :) aun. then went home na.

kakapagod talaga today. bukas pupunta kami kila ken. niyaya kami ni ken, saiang baby can't go w/ us kasi nagiipon siya eh. waaa.. :( magma-magic sing kami!.. ang cards! walang kamatayang cards! hihi.

grabe, i super duper love my baby mon so much talaga. he's so sweet talaga. :) and super bonded na kami and i love our relationship. i love everything that's happening na talaga with us!.. sb nga ni basil, "mukhang nahanap mo na yung hinahanap mo ah".. hihi. talagang nahanap ko na!..

uii, senti mode ako. haha. just dropped by here sa bloggybloggy ko.. haha. wala magawa!.. :)

boring day

2006-03-12T17:03:00.000-08:00

grabe. tagal umuwi ni baby.. :( promise. :(

grabe. school is boring. know why? wala na kaming ginagawa!.. varsity members doesn't attend CAT.. eh since thursday, CAT graduation practice.. so wala talaga kaming ginagawa. pero enjoy naman, coz everyday laro lang. magic. bluff. speed. taya-tayaan. kaia everyday, sobrang pagod ako.

si baby din exempted sa CAT, kasi scouting siya. yesterday, may practice prin ung CAT grad, kaia we have to go to school, 8-11am.. late kami pumasok nila gege. mga 9.30am nasa skul na kami. nandun na si baby. so aun, after town. nung una, mejo naBadtrip ako ky baby.. pero naging ok naman ako sakania.. bored na kasi ako kaia uminit ulo ko. so we watched Casanova. the movie was, so-so. di ko kasi naumpisahan eh. nagkekwentuhan nga kami ni baby sa loob ng movie house eh.. di nalang kme nanuod. haha. parang borin kasi eh. tapos after, mga 5pm hinatid na ako ni baby sa house. tapos tambay muna siya sa house. i helped him paint his car.

baet ni baby. nung dumating si mommy sa house, galeng grocery, he helped mommy sa mga gorcery bags. pinasok sa house. :) baet. tapos he went home ng mga 11pm.. :) it was fun.

miss ko na siya. gusto ko na mag-bukas. half-day lang kami. wala nanaman gagawin. hihi.

busy busy

2006-03-07T01:29:00.000-08:00

yes! sa wakas makakapa-update na ako. woohoo!..

last week was a bum. sana tapos na ang problems namin, pero dahil sa hinayupak na topak ng presidente ng pinas, hindi natuloy ang quarter exams namin.. kaia ngaun, nagaaral paren kami. pero ok lang un, last day na namin tomorrow!.. after tomorrow, practice nalang ng grad. kaia ok!..

last week, Thursday, last day of regular classes. kaia masaya, kasi we fooled around each other lang and talagang ginagago nalang namin lahat ng class!.. class debate namin, na sobrang walang kwenta!.. pero pic pic paren kami.

Friday, last week, Prom day/night.. nung day, la pasok ung 3rd and 4th year. pero the Rigodon-ers (that's us!) practiced in the morning. from 8-10am nasa skul ako. syempre w/ Mon din kasi pakner ko siya. so, naging ok ung routine. super last minute na kasi talaga ung practice namin na un. umuwi ako after then slept. tapos woke up to take a bath and go to the parlor for hair and make-up. finished ng 4pm. tapos went home, waited for Mon to fetch me. pictorial sa bahay, xempwe c mami ang kulit. haha. tapos un went to skul na. tapos kita2 with our fellow Rigodon-ers then nagstart na ng bandang 7pm.. tapos after 15 mins. of intros and speeches from the high pipol of Beda, nagPerform na kami.

Grabe, the performance was so malupit! though i had several mistakes, ok naman siya. kasi enjoy talaga!.. and the best part was i didn't trip! yeah, clap for me!.. kasi haba ng gown ko and i'm not used to wearing high freakin' heels!.. kaia i'm so proud of myself, na hindi ako natapilok!.. hihi. cheer kayo! haha. after, xempwe soakin' wet na kami. pero saia. tapos Bequeathal na. first time kami nagkulitan ng pakner kong junior, c Jasper. hehe. kulit nia pla, lague nia ako binabara. hmpf for Jasper! hihi. pero enjoy.

aun. tapos ung Skinwhite awards. haha. obviously, d ako masasali dun dahil d ako white!.. haha. for me, parang niloloko lang ung mga nominees nun ah.. though ung iba talagang matatanggap mong nominated sila, kasi bukod sa white sila, maganda sila. eh ung iba? hello?? magugulat talaga kayo kasi nasa stage sila!.. haha. i hate to name names, kaia quiet nlng ako. hihi.

then, after, party na!!.. saia, everyone was so high!.. parang nakaEcstasy sa kulit at kalog!.. then siyempre hindi mawawala ang slow dancing. Me and Mon were about to sit down na, biglang nagpLay yung "Fallin'".. parang kme, "ui, fallin' sayaw tayo!".. that's like our theme song, before we became "kami".. hihi. cute. tapos after tambay sa Westgate tapos hinatid ako ni Mon sa bahay, then tambay xa sa hauz muna. la cla mami eh. hehe. he went home mga 2am na. aun tapos usap kme sa fone hanggang 4am. hayy.

tapos natuloy nawin sa wakas QE namin. last day na tomorrow. i'm not studying na nga eh. stock knowledge nalang talga. so far, so good.

nga pala, our barkada is starting to chip in na for the gradball. after kasi, we decided to stay sa Westin. para overnight. 4thou ung overnight so everyday, we're giving in 20pesos each. on April 6, makakaipon na kami ng 4,400. kaia may tubo pang 400. woohoo! kylangan lang talaga sipag dito!..

so, il end this na. haba nawin toh. ciao!

alone mode ako..

2006-02-28T21:07:00.000-08:00

hayy.. xempwe senti mode ako ngayon. tagal ko na hinde nakakapag-update..

nothin' much is happening nowadays.

sa school, almost lahat ng subject free time na. kasi tapos na.. our Finals' supposed to be kanina.. pero, due to the president's ka-"praningan".. walang pasok nung Friday.. eh yun na dapat ung last day of regular class namin.. siyempre sobrang importante un for us, lalo na sa section namin, ung Section 47 na sobrang bonded na. we were supposed to make the most out of it. kaso, wala ngang pasok.. kaia sobrang badtrip!.. tapos yesterday, wala din pasok. kahapon ung official date ng first day of Quarter Exams.. today lang nag-resume ung classes, kaia dapat ngaun ung test.. kaso d nanaman natuloy! next week na daw. hassle sobra! kasi Prom namin on Friday. dapat yung after ng Prom la na dapat kaming iicping test!.. hay naku, nagkaroon tuloy!.. hayy..

pwo hindi naman yun yung reason why i'm sad today.. kasi naiinis na ako sa sarili ko. sobrang i hate my ugali ngaun. nahihirapan na ako sa ugali ko. seryoso. when it comes to Mon talga, sobrang napapraning ako. naiinis ako sa sarili ko kasi i tend to think of silly things about him. or kung ano pa. there are constant rants in my head, and i really don't like it. it drives me insane!.. i wish it will stop na. mahirap talaga. and it really affects me. so bad.

hayy. sana talaga tumigil na toh mga chong.. i really can't take it na. wish me luck.

happy monthsary baby!

2006-02-19T10:13:00.000-08:00

it's the start of another week nanaman. grabe, for me, ang bilis nung previous week. many things happened this past week. mahaba habang blog ito. haha.

Monday. 1st day of long test. xempre d ako nagCram.. for the first time. ok naman ung mga tests. after classes we (me, jeni, gege and gelo) went to Town to buy some valentine gifts and then went to BF to buy flowers. ang gaganda. it was not so expensive but it looks so elegant, the flowers i mean. un. then we ate sa Ruins. then went home na. i did what Gelo told me to do. he told me na gawing petals nalang ung 2 extra boquets na binili niya na color pink and white. tapos he gave me a cartolina, cut ko daw na pa-heart shape. un. for his "plano" the next day.

Tuesday. so, yeah today was Valentine's day. i didn't expect Mon to give me flowers. kasi alam ko tamad un magbitbit ng kng ano2.. so gulat ako, when he arrived he was holding this huge boquet of red roses. it was sweet. ang ganda pa nung itsura nung packaging ng flowers. (Thank you baby!).. aun. so 2nd test day namin ito. o db? Valentines na valentines, nagtetest kami. the Physics test was sobrang chicken. grabe, for the first time d kme pinahirapan ng punyetang Physics na yan!.. haha. tapos nag dinner kaming family sa Tony Roma's.. me and Mon were supposed to meet up for our date pero sobrang init niya kasi nung day na un.. ang taas ng lagnat, dna xa pinayagan ng Dad niya. so un, i was whining about how much i miss him.. bglang he txted me.. "Baby surprise nasa town na ako!".. hehehe. baby ko talaga. pag gusto niya, kylangan ibigay mo.. d titigil pag d nakukuha ang gusto.. hehe. edy ang saia ko!.. un. he gave me a cake!.. from Art Cakes.. nakalagay "I Love You Mimi -Mon".. tapos color red and yellow. ang cuuuttte!.. hihi. aun. he went with us (me, my mom, my bro and sis) sa Starbucks.. but we didn't stay long. hinatid niya kami sa house, tapos he stayed for a while. sobrang naAppreciate ko kasi, kht na sobrang nilalaganat siya, he was still there for me on Valentines day. sobrang he completed my Valentines Day. Love you baby!

Wednesday. Mon told me he won't go to school. ako, pumasok ng recess time. kasi tinatamad talaga ako pumasok ng maaga. ang taas ko sa Physics!.. 38/45.. woohoo!.. ang saia koh!.. tpos nung CVE time namin, c Mon dumating. d nanaman ako natiis!.. haha. joke lng baby. un pumasok na siya. tpos may knwn2 nga pla skn si Ja.. about Ms. Tolentino. kasi i did Mon's assignment once sa English. not nman talagang totally ginawa, sinulat ko lang ULIT. ayun, nahuli. nagparinig daw si Ms. na inaalipin ang girlfriend ng iba jan.. parang ginanun niya daw c Mon.. nung gabi, when we were talking ni Mon, galit na galit siya. kasi, ok lang kung nagjojoke eh.. tatawa naman siya. kaso kung joke man un, wag nlng daw ako isali kasi naiinis siya pag dindamay pa ako. awww.. db ang sweet ng baby ko? ako parin ang inisip.. hayyy..

Thursday. Siyempre today nanghihina ako.. kasi nagcng ako ng 3am.. nakatapat ung electric fan sa akin. sobrang lamig!! pag gcng ko, un na! ang sakit ng ulo ko. d nga ako nakapagBreakfast eh. ang sarap pa naman ng breakfast!.. kaia aun. nilagnat ako sa skul!.. buong recess natulog lang ako. Third Quarter Convo. last convo na namin coz we're graduating na nga. and AT LAST, umakyat na ako!.. Deportment Card of Honor ako.. pangConduct xa.. woohoo!.. so siyempre, umakyat ako na hilo hilo.. kasi nga ang init ko. kaia pinapagClinic ako ni Mon.. so, fine nagClinic ako.. pinainom ako gamot. after lunch naging ok na naman ako. kasi ang kulit ko na ulit. may Pre-Prom Chit chat kami. Skinwhite nanamn ang nagSponsor. siyempre, wala nanaman akong lugar dun, dahil negra ako. hahaha. kwawa nanaman ako. haha. i hate you Skinwhite!.. belat! mamatay ka na. haha! ang wierd ko.

Friday. Intrams! grabe ang itim ko na nga, umitim pa ako lalo. Varsity members doesn't have to participate here pero xempre ako, active parin!.. kaia aun, luto nanaman ang balat ko!.. nagObstacle relay ako, grabe, ako una sa linya.. i was on the last tire na, natapilok ako at aun nadapa ako!.. ang saya. pero siyempre, dedma nalng, tumayo ako agad and continue paren!.. nahabol na sana namin kaso panira ung basketball sa dulo! ang hirap iShoot nung bola. langya!.. talo tuloy. pero ang saia nung intrams promise!.. after, nagTown kme nila gege. date kami ni gege eh. kme lng 2 nanuod ng Pink Panther!.. laftrp sobra!.. went home ng mga 8..

Saturday. Town kami ni Mon.. watched Close to You. grabe, after the movie, nagCr ako.. tapos parang may kulang talaga sa akin. i realized that my iPod was gone!.. so i went back inside the moviehouse and wala na!.. punta ngaun ako ky Mon. kala ko, he kept it. wala din sa kanya!!.. oh no talaga! sobrang naiiyak na ako. pasok ulit kami ni Mon sa sinehan. tpos the guard told us to ask the people sa Info booth. tapos un, tinanong ko kng nakita nila iPod ko. tapos hawak nung guard ung iPod ko! weeeeee! ang swerte!!.. i love the Lord!!

Sunday. wala pang nangyayari. MONTHSARY NAMIN TODAY!! 3 mos. na kami. saia. Mon was at Kenji's house kagabi. pinayagan ko siya hanggang 1 doon. pero he went home ng 12. baet db?.. un pala he went home ng 12 kasi Monthsary nga namin.. naghhntayan kami na maggrit sa isa't isa!.. kala ko nga nakLmtan niya eh.. hehe. mahal na mahal kita RAMON C. INOCENCIO JR.!!!..

i'm so inLove! sobra!

2006-02-12T13:33:00.000-08:00

tagal ko na d naguupdate ah.. kakatamad kasi eh.. and i'm finding for another skin for my blog.. sawa na ako sa skin ko. haha.

nwei, the past week was too long for me. puro study study study kasi. exam na kasi ng mga 4th yr tomorrow and on tuesday. so, damehng lessons. and i super love Physics (now lang).. haha.. kasi i super understand the lesson. madali lang siya. goal ko this LT2 ma-lyn of 9 ko ung test ko dun. kasi bagsak ako nung LT1, kaia aaral na ako mamaia.

kakapagod din this week. kasi since tuesday, nagppractice na kami ng Regodon. super mas naiintindihan pa ni Mon kung paano. ako, nalilito pa.. and super nahihirapan ako sa Swing part!.. as in Woah.. haha. pero masaya.

i have na my gown for the prom. kasi sa prom, kylangan sa akin, pink na gown kasi kasali sa Regodon.. sana lang d ako madapa or matisod diba?.. haha. kasi i really am having problems when it comes to stilletos.. seryoso.. haha. i remember when i was in 1st year, nagRegodon ako nun for Batangas people, super nakailang tisod ako nun at dulas. kaia sna ngaun, dna!.. hahaha.. kakahiya noh!..

aun. tapos nung Tuesday, CHorale concert. as usual. astig xa. and dameh nagpapadedicate ng songs. kakakilig ginawa ni Gelo. woohoo. Go besh!..
*sigh* i Miss Tennis.. gusto ko na magtennis ulit. dna ako nakakapagtrianing. next week, d nanaman, may Mendiola ako. gwabe.

grabe, todo aral na kami ni Mon. he was here sa bahay last friday pati yesterday. nung Friday, he was teaching me sa Physics and Math tapos yesterday, i taught him sa Stat.. so hinde na kmi magccram.. hehe. i'm so proud of my baby, sobrang nagtitiyaga siya ngaun.. hihi. before he went here , Town muna kami. tapos watched I will always love you. d xa maganda. mas trip nmin ung first movie nila, ung Let the Love Begin.. haha. aun, tpos he went home mga 11.30.. tpos usap kme hanggang 2.. kasi an2k na ako, 8am ako nagcng.

i had an argument w/ him nung umaga pero nagng Ok na lahat. grabe, dpa kami nagaaway nun. haha, saya!.. i love him so much!!..

anoder month!

2006-02-01T21:09:00.000-08:00

feb. 01 na!.. woohoo!

i love it!

haha. wala lang.

grabe. good news! we went sa Lasalle Dasma nung Monday. Me, Mon, Jenny and Maan. Adventure talaga! ang bilis namin lumabas ng skul. kasi after classes kami pumunta.. and the office closes at 5 pm.. ang tapos ng class namin, 2.45. so talagang bilis kami. natagalan kami sa Shuttle.. mewon sa Town. mga 15-20 mins bago kami nakaalis.. so binaba kami sa isang place, then we have to ride the trike pa na akala namin ibababa na kami sa tapat ng Dasma, pero hinde! we rode a jeep pa!.. grabe!.. un. tapos it was 4.30 na that time, and we didn't know kng san pa ung accounting. kaia aun, buti nalang nakuha na namin. i2 malupet. edy turn ko na para magpa-confirm.. BS Bio ang kukunin ko talaga dapat. coz i didn't pass ung Nursing sa Dasma.. Bio lang pati CommArts.. guess what? the guy checked out something sa PC.. tapos bgLang pagbaLk nia, he askd me, "Gusto mo ba magNursing? Nagqualify ka kasi eh".. parang ako.."Siyempre!".. Mon was so xcited talaga. he called my mom. haha. siya pa unang nagbalita eh noh. super thank you kay Ate Joy, kasi i learned na she talked sa Dean ng Dasma.. she teaches kasi sa Dasma. and Top notcher talaga siya when she was still studying there. (sister nga pala ni Mon un).. aun. kaia Savior ko talaga si Mon and Ate joy!.. woohoo!.. i have an interview on April 4.. aun. ang saya!..

super saia lalo kasi magkaskuL kami ni Mon.. eh Lasalle Dasma has 2 campuses.. isang mga Med related courses, ung isang campus, malaki talaga sobra!.. eh kng Bio ang kukunin ko, dun ako sa campus na malaki. si Mon sa isang campus, ung pangMed.. d gaanong malayo ung campus pwo you have to ride sa transpo pa... para makarating.. eh Nursing na (sana!) kaia magksama kme ng campus ng baby koh! ang saya talaga!

nga pala, kasali na ata kami ni Mon sa Regodon de Honor. nakakatwa. nagjojoke lang pala si Mon about that, eh nasabi ko ky Mela na gusto ko pati ni Mon.. tapos we were stunned nung Monday, ina-announce nung Morning Assembly.. nagulat si Mon, sineryoso ko daw! haha. yan kinarma xa. hilig nia kasi mangTrip ng mga serious stuffs. hehe. kasali tuloy kami. sb nia skn, kng hnde lang dw nia ako love naku, ewan daw nia talaga. haha. love you baby!..

ayy, may sweet thing pa pla gnwa baby ko. kasi i'm the type of person na pag long drive talga, ipasok mo lang ako sa kotse, in a few minute, knock out na ako. as in tulog. promise. dameh na witness!.. hehe. (gege, sarap ba? hehe).. eh un nung galeng kameng Dasma, nakatulog talaga ako.. when i woke up, we were in Las piñas na!.. tapos tumambay pa si Mon d2 sa bahay.. sb ko "Ang sakit ng leeg ko!".. sb nia "Ako naman ung shoulder ko.. ang tigas kasi ng ulo mo baby eh!".. tas tawa ako ng tawa.. tas sb nia "Inaantok na nga ako eh.. Gusto ko na matulog kanina".. sb ko, "Eh bat dka natulog?".. sb nia "Eh binabantayan kita eh.. mamaia, mawala ka.. Gusto ko lang mabantayan ka habang natutulog ka".. parang ako.. Awwwww talga.

Hayy, saia. Mar. 3 ang Threshold!.. aun. cge na g2g na!.. babayoo!

badtrip..

2006-01-27T20:37:00.000-08:00

hayy. just went home from Town.

kain lng ulit. tapos kwentuhan lng. w/ cam, lia, gege and patty. super kumulang oras sa kwentuhan galore namin. tapos e2 laftrip. kasi we were on our way home na. we were riding sa jeep. when pnancn namin legs ni patty. we were like "nice patty. ang sexy mo! kinis pa ng legs!.. walang kapeklat2!".. tapos i saw this man beside patty. he was checking out patty's legS!.. parang ako, ok ka lang??.. tapos i nudged gege, and signalled her sa way nung lalake. tapos nakita win ni gege. tawa kami ng tawa. tapos c patty napancn na tintignan namin ung lalake, napatingin win c patty. tapos nandire talaga xa!.. tawa kami ng tawa. sobrang laftrp talaga!.. haha.

tapos nga pala. kuhanan ng card ngaun. tapos super shocking. Top 8 ako. haha. woohoo!.. kasi kinakabahan pa nga ako eh!.. kasi bagsak ako longtest 1 and 2 sa english tas 79 lng ako sa quarter.. kaia ang inicp ko may bagsak ako, or lyn of 7. grabe, buti hnde!.. la ako lyn of 7!.. ang saia talaga!!.. hehe. napasaia ko nanaman si mami. yey!...

kaso here's the catch. lumabas na ngaun USTET results. guess what?.. d ako pasado. watdafuck!!.. pero ok nawin un. meant siguro akong magDasma. para magksama kme ng baby ko. at least may advantage.

aun. super whew ang day na toh.

mimi. so happy! (boo!) hahaha..

2006-01-26T22:40:00.000-08:00

my title's wierd, i know. hehe.

wutever.

nweiz, LT1 is over! woohoo! that was tough!.. super, i don't know anything talaga. as in. BLANK. kaya cram nanaman ako 2da maxx. pero may nasagot naman ako khit papano. hehe.

nga pala. CONGRATS SENIORS. haha. i know, late reaction ako. sorry na, kinda busy lately eh. kaia ngaun lng ako nakapag-update. grbe astig. super great year for us kabatchmates!.. na-sweep natin ang lahat ng competitions. una, Intrams, tapos Dasayawit (sec.42 won!), tpos Dramafest (Best Play, Best Director, Best Actor:Amber Gagajena, Best Actress:Therese Mutuc, Best Supporting Actor:xempre besh Gelo ko yan! go besh!) and lastly, Cheering Compet!.. yes, our feelings and pride were badly hurt, we really perspired sa hirap ng batch practice, we were so hanging by a thread, pero bandang huli, VICTORY ang nakuha natin. and that's super enough to fill that great big hole sa hearts natin mga ka-batchmates!..

sb na nga ba, basta we believe in ourselves.. we will surely get that victory. now, we proved them all wrong. sb nila losers tau?.. haha. dream on!.. kala nio ah. astig kaia kme!.. nanalo kami sa lahat! haha. kaia im super proud of my batchmates. mamimis ko kaung lahat once we step out of Beda.. hayy, kakalungkot talaga lapit na Graduation!

xciting pero kakasad din. im xoo xcited kasi sa Threshold and sa Gradball eh. i even found my "dress" na nga eh. nasa store pa kasi. kaia feeling ko palang dress ko na un. haha.

grbe, pagod ako. galeng pkong Town knina. and i was like, eating everything. as in, pag natripan ko ung food na nadaanan ko, i'm gonna buy it. kain lng ako ng kain. i nid to play tennis na again. im getting fatter na. super. sa saturday, magttraining ako, promise!.. hehe. sana. tapos Mon just went home. xobwang, kulit namin. tawanan lng kme knina. kasi pnagtripan ung A1!.. ung mga videos nila!.. ginagaya! grbe. hahaha.. super laftrp talaga pag kasama nio baby ko. kaia ako never ako hnde tumawa pag ksama un!.. hehe.

oh well. have to go na. manunuod pa ako, Maalaala mo kaia!.. hehe. ciao!

wee!

2006-01-19T19:27:00.000-08:00

tomorrow will be OUR day. cheering compet na!.. though i'm not one of the cheerdancers na, sobrang i'm so happy parin. kasi i feel i'm part of them parin. ang saya ng routine. ang saya ng batch. ang creative ng performance. basta everything falls into place. everything is so damn great!.. i love my batch talaga!..
nae-excite na ako bukas!.. sobrang khit we won't get the champion award, ok lang. at least we played clean. walang BITTERNESS na kasali. and d kme pumapatol sa IBA. 'coz ang importante may mai-present kme, and we did this on our own, as in pawis at dugo talaga.

nga pala, pom-pom girl ako!.. why? kasi gumawa ako ng pompoms. hehe. as in, props commitee.. hihi. saya gumawa ng pompoms!.. bwahaha.

aun. i miss dancing. haha. kulet ko. nga pala, Tito Alan bought me an iPod nano. haha. love him to death. pinadala nia skn from Saudi. thanks Tito Alan!.. ang saya.

and, 2 months na kme ni baby!.. Happy Monthsary baby ko!.. i'm so happy baby!.. you don't know how much you've made me happy since we came to know each other well. sobrang thank you God!.. wee. alam ko i tend to get irritated with you sometimes, lalo na this past few days, sorry talaga!.. gulo lang talaga ng utak ko. bsta always remember that i love you so much. and i won't leave you, ok?.. love you baby!..

sadness..

2006-01-13T18:31:00.000-08:00

yan, after 1 week. u-update ko na ito.

napakaboring sa school. all i do, is sleep, listen sa iPod even if the teacher's there or just stare out of nowhere. ung, people think that i'm listening, but i'm not coz i'm not absorbing anything. sheesh. btw, we got the batch jacket na pala. it was ok. and tamang-tama coz may aircon na. hihi. batch cheering practices have already started. *sigh* sad coz i'm not part of it na coz of this stupid foot. (haha, ung foot ung stupid eh noh!). last night, i stayed until 8 to watch them. xempre, support sa kada!.. *go gege, lia, ances and anna* hihi. the routine's great!.. my humps chong!.. ang cute. i asked gege if she could teach me ung steps sa 2nd track nila. ang cute kasi!.. so un, when i was watching them, i missed lang the bonding with the team. un ung pinaka-namiss ko talaga. and dahil dun, nasasad ako. i was talking to Auria last night. kasi she didn't join the batch cheering din. parehas ung reason namin, sayang, kasi pde na kami ngaun sumali. i miss dancing!.. and ung Bunchkeeeeens. grabe na iteeech!.. everyday, nagsstretch pawin ako. hehe. baka mawala ang flexibility. bwahahaha. landeeeh! everyday nag-dadance galore din kami ni ishang (my lil sis!).. i'm teaching her some dancesteps.

last night, Mon fetched me sa school. together w/ maan, jeni, ren, bato and ray. dropped ren and bato sa town, c ray sa festi. so 4 nlng kme. kumain muna sila maan, jeni and mon sa house. tpos Maan went home na. tpos tambay kami sa labas, c jeni at ako, nagssayaw. haha. tpos Mon showed me ung steps nia sa You can do it na song. haha. kakainLuv tuloy lalo!.. hihi.

bitin!

2006-01-07T20:56:00.000-08:00

school started already.. and, teachers started to distribute our Quarter Exam grades na. the result? i passed all of them! yipee!..pinaka-kinabahan akong grade talaga, sa English.. kasi honestly, this 3rd quarter, wala pa akong napapasang longtest.. buti nalang pasado ako sa Quarter!.. wee!.. ;-)

uhmm.. superr boring ngaun sa school. before pa nga our first day of classes, niyaya ako ni Mommy pumunta sa Bagaberde in Roxas to watch Nyoy and Nina's gig. sumama ako. parang walang pasok the next day noh? hehe. ;-p we were home na @ around 2.30 am. tpos i had to wake up @ 5am. haha. kawawa naman ako. ;-p

so, un. 1st day of classes, may Physics project na agad na kyLangan ipasa.. so, i did parts of me and ja's project and mon and norman v.'s project.. norman did the 2 boats. so, good. napasa ung project. ngaun, may project pa sa Math/Stat na kyLangan ipasa on Monday. partner kme ni Mon, so sbi nia, cLa nalang ni Ate Joy (older sis nia) bahala dun.. baet.. ;-) we went to Town today, and he was so sweet. kasi, Mommy askd me to buy some materials sa National Bookstore, she gave me a list. so we went there, sb ni Mon skn, "Tayo ka lng jan, ako na maghahanap nian. Gusto kita pagsilbihan eh".. parang ako.. awww.. ;-) sweet naman.. hehehehe. aun, nga pala!.. papunta kme Town.. pnahawak nia skn ung manibela ng car.. tas he was telling me, na i-left ko ng konti, or i-ryt.. basta, oti tLga baby ko. sb nia, kylangan ko na daw matuto magDrive, para pag tnamad na daw xa magdrive, ako naman ang magddrive para sknia. hehe. don't worry baby, pagddrive din kita balang araw. hehe. ;-p

2006 na!

2006-01-03T10:33:00.000-08:00

3rd day of the year. Bdei win ni Ange.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEGE!!!

grabe.. in less than 3 months, ggraduate na kme.. scary, at the same time, excited nawin.. kasi new school (at last! kasi since nursery pa ako sa Beda na Benedictine Abbey School pa nun!..) and new "pack" of people.. hehe. ;-p

hayy, may kwento ako. nung jan. 1, me, mommy and ishang were supposed to go to town, w/ "somebody" na hnde apruv tita ko. eh tamang tama my tita was out, so makakaalis kami w/ that somebody. dinalaw ako ni Mon sa house.. bandang 7pm, dpa kme nakakaalis ni mommy, bgLang dumating na cLa tita.. so delikado. Mon went home na.. i told mommy na nanjan na sila tita pano na ian.. Mommy asked me if Mon brought his car.. sb ko oo pero he left na.. aba, ang nanay ko pnabalik pa baby ko!.. baliw tLga un, gagawin daw niang pangtakas ang baby ko.. edy i txted Mon na.. ;-p nung knwn2 ko ky Mon un, when he arrived again, tawa kme ng tawa. Mommy was like a teenager!.. :-) hahahaha!.. so un, nakaalis kme. hinatid kme ni Mon sa town. kulit noh? kaia love ko baby ko e. ;-p

nwei, have to go na!.. manlilibre c gege.. haha!.. ;-p muah!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2005-12-31T23:42:00.000-08:00

baby surprised me last night!.. bgLang sumulpot sa Ruins.. we were just talking minutes ago. then he told me, papaCar wash xa.. eh punta me Ruins, bgLang nagCOL.. nasa Ruins daw xa. haha. i was so happy TLga!.. ;-)

nwei...

HAPPY NEW YEAR guys!!

in a few minutes, 2005 will end!.. gosh. ang bilis tLga ng panahon!.. feeling ko kaka-new year plng.. haha, OA ko, kasi i have my 2005 new year gritings pa sa cel ko. haha. ;-p grabe, ngaun ko lng narealize na i have experienced lots of things na pla!.. ;-p things that made me realize some things.. things that taught me stuffs i could use in the future..

dameh memorable things na nangyari sa akin this year. dameh win crappy things. pwo ok win, kasi i learned from it. SUMMER 2005. not-so-best summer. but it was ok, kasi na-continue ko ung piano lessons ko. and i had summer escapades w/ someone-who-shall-not-be-named.. *hihi* BDAY 2005. spent it w/ my "ka-bdei".. haha. ;-) SY 2005. *sigh* first day of school was kind of a blur. pro xciting win kasi after almost 2 months of relaxation and not seeing your friends, makikita mo na ult sila.. dealt with super hassle schoolworks..! tpos started applying to different schools nawin!.. ;-) JULY 2005. *sigh* un na cguRo ang (w8 stick with you sa radio! hahaha.) nwei, continuing. ;-p un na cguro ung tym na pnakaumiyak ako this year.. hayy, don't ask why. SEPTEMBER 2005. haha! worst month of the year.. Lost "him".. (tigger) Lost my "foot" for awhile.. napilay ako! haha. d tuLoy ako nakapag-try outs sa cheering!.. *bummer*.. ;-p OCTOBER 2005. kabaligtaran. ang saia ko this month. really really moved on from the "tragedy".. met someone.. ;-) NOVEMBER 2005. naging kme ni Mon.. super duper happy!.. DECEMBER 2005. best CHRISTMAS ever!!..

hayyy, evry year tLga.. naggng mas complicated ang buhay ko. and i'm gLad i have my friends and family together with me, kaia nao-overcome ko ung things na tLGang hirap lagpasan. ;-)

i want to say thanks to Mommy!.. kasi lague xa nanjan for me.. buong year she was with me. guiding me. (d xa nagStates this year!).. my bro, Mikey and my sis, Ishang na kahit makulit love ko pawin!.. ;-) sa JAMALA! love you guys!.. i'm so gLad i found true friends like you guys!.. to Cam, Nicaye and Maan.. ;-) never thot you guys would be close to me, and i'm glad ngaun we're tight tight friends. love you to death!.. ;-) ky Kendrick! (yes, spexal mention ka chong!).. thank you sa paggng patient.. as in SO patient with me. babawasan ko na ang pangaasar sau! haha. konti lng. ;-p love yah chong!.. ky BESH gelo! hope magng happy na ang chugudugdug heart mo!.. haha. and xempre, .. Mon!.sa Baby Kulit ko. thanks for being there for me.. ;-) nanajn ka pawati sa tabi ko. ndi ko alam, nasa tabi ko na pla palague ung lalakeng mamahalin ko ALWAYS.. ;-p i love you my baby.. ;-)

and to all the people that i hurt.. IM SO SORRY.. dko cnasaja.. hope you guys would forgive me.. ;-)

*sigh* 30 mins nalng!.. 2006 na!.. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

NEW YEAR's RESOLUTION

-->magpapayat na!
-->attend tennis training MORE often
-->be more ORGANIZED
-->grow up. ;-p*sheesh!*
-->wag na mang-backstab.. *teehee*
-->study HARDER
-->magtipid..! (pahirapan toh! ;-p)
-->make people haPPy!.. ;-)
-->find a NEW hobby.
-->attend mass EVERY sunday.

2005-12-30T14:21:00.000-08:00

hayyy.. another great day for me.. as usual, baby made me smile again.. ;-) he's the greatest tLgA!.. ;-) we were together last night.. we watched the last full show of Mulawin. haha. d xa baduy, swear, ang ganda ng movie! ;-) nweiz, i went home mga 1am.. tpos he went to Kazuki's house pa.. tOld him to be home b4 4am.. and good boy tLGa baby ko.. umuwi on time.. tpos pag kaOL ko lng ngaun, may new message ako.. *sigh* baby.. napaiyak nnman ako sa tuwa.. ang sweet ng mesaj nia skn.. ;-)

last night, he askd me, "Baby, anong gs2 mong love? ung always o forever?".. sb ku.. "always?".. thinking na pwehas lng naman ung meaning, un nlng cngot ko.. sb niya,, "yan din sagot ko baby.. kz ang forever, pag patay ka wala na.. ang always, kht patay na ako, love prin kita..".. awwww!.. ;-)

i realized na i've been in a lot of relationships.. and all of them didn't work out. whether it's because of me or them.. i admit, dati, napaka-immature ko pa.. and cge lng ako ng cge when it comes to decisions.. pag natrpan kong ayaw ko, ssbhn ku ayaw ko.. pag ginusto ko naman, edy gusto. ika-nga "isip-bata" pa ako nun. i admit, it's wrong. but after that, things were different na. espexali, when i had a recent "past" relationship.. sobrang i was determined to work things out between us, i was dead serious about him and our relationship, man!.. but, as the song goes, what goes around comes around. in short, kinarma siguro ako. so, un. pero ngaun, i have Mon na.. i know i met my "ka-tambal" na.. you know, the person who truly understands you. the person you can taLk to pag na-o-Ot ka!.. hehe. aun. bsta Mon made me realize some thngs.. and he's the kind of person you won't dare to hurt tLGa.. and i promise i won't hurt him tLGa.. he means so much to me.. ;-) and tLgang aalagaan ko tong relationship na toh.. mature na kaya ako! haha. ;-p

ang sweet ni baby!.. ;-)

2005-12-27T23:44:00.000-08:00

hahahaha.. ang sweet ni Mon.. he went here sa house.. ;-) ngaun. as in ngaung gabi.. eh i'm not allowed to have superr late night visits.. eh tiempo c mami umalis, so i went outside, and for a while.. im w/ my baby.. hayy. sweet tLGa nun.. ever. mis na mis ko na xa eh, and at the same tym mis na niya ako.. kaia he went to me.. aww.. ever.. ;-p haha. *may nagyaya pa sknia na pmnta kng san2.. hmpf. ;-p

new layout!

2005-12-26T23:41:00.000-08:00

yehey.. new layout!.. hehe. simple lang xa, pwo its ok nawin for me..

anyhoo. i've been kinda busy lately.. buti today, dito lang ako sa hauz.. i've got nothing to do, my baby's out.. getting his license, so la ako makakausap sa fone.. gege's in buLacan.. basta everybody's not home. bummer.

Christmas eve. after the Mass, we proceeded to Tita Arlene's house. we will be spending our Christmas eve there.. my baby and i talked until midnight. so we could greet each other at exactly twelve. ;-) nwei, the food was great!.. sobwang bundat na ako kakakain.. i need to exercise na nga ngaun since my tummy has been receiving food 24/7.. can't stop eating!.. man!.. i'm so faatt!.. Mon keeps on saying na i'm not fat naman daw.. well, i am. ;-p promise. ;-p nwei, we went home at around 2.30..

Christmas Day. woke up at around 10. arranged the clothes that i'm gonna bring coz we're going to Prince Hotel. (mother side).. arrived at around 12.. the hotel's awesome.. the bathroom's cLean (good heavens!).. ;-) so, i really enjoyed my stay there.. same day, went to G4 to watch Kutob.. the movie was ok.. pero once lang ako nagulat.. hihi. gusto nakakagulat eh!.. hehe. tpos tambay lang kme ni mommy sa Greenbelt. walking distance lang kasi ung hotel sa Greenbelt.. kaia Mommy and I stayed behind, maglalakad nalang kme.. while we were waLking, sb ku ky Mommy "Yayain ko kaia c Mon dito sa Greenbelt. ang sarap mag-date dito eh.." tpos sb ni mommy, "Sira ulo, ka tlga noh?.. Parang ang dameh mong pera!".. haha!.. tpos tinawanan ako ng nanay ko. haha.. mommy tLGa o!.. when we arrived at the hotel, Mon called. ang kuLit pa namin.. kasi operator muna ang ssgot sau, and they'll ask you if your gonna take the call or not.. aun. sb namin nakikinig sa amin ung operator.. kinakausap pa ni Mon.. haha!.. ang kulit tLga ng baby ko.. ;-p

the next day, left at 12.. tpos punta kme G4 nila mommy.. shopping!.. i bought 1 coulotte [dang, can't rmmbr the spelling! haha], flips and shirts.. ang cute!.. hehe. ;-p un. got home @ around 5.. aun.. rest lang ako saglit tapos usap kme ni Mon upto 12.30 i think.. ;-p tpos chat kme hanggang 1.30.. hihi. i miss him na!.. can't wait to see him!..

success!

2005-12-24T14:57:00.000-08:00

yahoo! i've completed the 9 morning masses! last day today!.. i asked for something from God already.. hope he'll hear my prayers. *wish wish*

nwei, it was my baby's birthday last dec. 20.. he just turned seventeen.. ;-) he threw a party at his place.. aun. several friends were there.. ung iba d nkpunta for certain reasons.. ang saia may karaoke.. ;-p finally met kat-kat, his inaanak.. ang cute!.. she was singing and singing sa karaoke.. hehe. tpos met her mom win.. baet nila!.. napaka-hospitable.. esp. ate joy.. ;-) kuLit2 niya, manang mana c mon sa ate niya.. hehe. saia kasama. ;-) i was so shy nga eh.. pnapakanta niya ako.. hehe. pwo seryoso, nahihiya tLga ako. ;-p nwei, i went home mga 12.30.. hinatid ako sa house.. tpos that night, i told mommy about Mon na.. and yes, Legal na kme!.. ;-) yippee!..

aun, nothing much happened the next day.. labas2 lng kme nila mommy.. the next 2 days, d kme maxadong nakakapagusap ni Mon.. pweho kmeng busy.. and la sa bahay lague.. dna nga kme nakakapanuod ng Etheria eh!.. kakainis.. ;-p

aun, sa xobwang miss sa isa't isa and la magawa sa bahay, we decided to go out yesterday... watched In Her Shoes, tPos bought a gift for my mom.. tpos he bought gifts for his dad and mom.. un. ang sweet nga eh, first tym i shopped w/ my boyfriend.. ang saia.. we helped each other.. aun. i went home mga 10.. hinatid nia ako sa house.. tpos he called me pagdating niya sa house.. we talked until dawn.. eh dumating na c mommy.. saiang nga eh!.. ;-)

miss ko na xa.. mejo nagkainisan kme knina sa phone.. hehe. pwo la un.. love namin isa't isa eh.. we can't stay mad for a sec. dpa nga kme nagaaway eh!.. hehe.. nga pla, napagusapan namin last nyt.. na, khit mejo mabilis na nagng kme.. matagal naman kme nagkaklala eh.. since first year pa! last year, nagng close, nagkukulitan.. lalo na dis year.. aun. so, sobrang before magng kme, klala na namin isa't isa.. kaia i like what's going on with our reLationship.. galeng. ;-) haha.

happy day to me.. ;-p

2005-12-19T22:33:00.000-08:00

ang saya ng day ko ngaun.. c mon kasi.. full of suprises tLga baby ko..! ;-) kasi monthsary namin ngayon, eh nagtxt xa kninang umaga, wala man lang Happy Monthsary!.. edy sobwang galit tLGa ako.. tpos nung 2mawag xa d2 sa house, walang bnabanggit tungkol sa monthsary namin.. tpos tnanong ko kung may nakakalmtan ba xa.. d tLga maalala, edy cnbi ku na.. tas sb nia nakalimutan nia daw!.. sb nia pa "sorry baby, la ako sa tamang pagiicp ngaun".. sobrang shet! badtrp ako nun.. nagalit ako sknia.. tampururot nanaman ako.. eh pag nagddrama pa naman ako tLgang kung ano2 cnsbi koh.. nakktwa tLga..

tpos i took a bath na, kasi nagBye na skn c mon, he's gonna take a bath nawin daw.. aun. tpos yL i was taking a bath, kinatok ako ni ishang sb nia, Mon was there daw. nand2 xa sa bahay!.. loko un, sinurprise ako.. inaasar pa nia ako kasi ang drama ko daw.. pati nga kLa ge nagdrama ako kasi kala ko nakLmtan nia.. na-prove ku win na he didn't forget our monthsary kasi he gave me a ring tpos may naka-engrave.. hihi. kilig 2da maxx nanaman ako.. super naiiyak ako.. ;-) i love my baby!.. sobra!.. ;-) tpos tLGa daw plano niang galitin ako.. haha. baby koh tLga.. ang sweet2!!..

after a looNg tym .. ;-)

2005-12-17T22:48:00.000-08:00

as i promised.. here's a serious bLog.. ;-p

man, i'm just killing time ngaun.. balak ku na d ma2log gang 4.30.. coz im going to the misa de gallo.. haha, desidido tLga akong ibuO ung 9 masses.. ;-) and it's my 3rd day na tomorrow.. yahoo!.. last year, 2 days lng ako.. tas d ako nagcng d next day.. so dko na tnuLoi.. [aukO na maalala ung cmbang gabi last yr. hmpf. ;-(]

2nd day of xmas vacation.. khpon nagstart.. we had the xmas party [ac2li, not-so-xmas-party].. kasi 8-10am xa.. mon was txting me tLga, as in tanong xa ng tanong kng nasan nko, kasi 9 na la pKo skuL.. haha. sowee baby! kasi mejo matagal cla ge and nicai, so aun. tagal tuLoy. so, un. we went there na.. and then, after the party, as usual, town uLt. dameh namin. we tOok some pix.. sa pic city. iL post the pix, pag na-scan na ni jen. [paging jen, nasan na ung pix?? haha].. tpos we watched Kingkong.. ang nice ng movie.! i was with Mon pla and friends.. ;-) ang saia!.. tPos uwi na ng mga 6..

the next day, Friday (dec.16,'05), we went sa house ni ken.. ang swit ni Mon! sobra! kasi the nyt before, we were talking on the phone, and then, dapat nga kukunin nia ung result ku sa Dasma d next day.. pwo he said he was going to commute lng daw and he doesn't know how pag pauwi na.. so dko xa pnaiagan.. delekado un noh.. so, katext ku xa.. and sb ku punta xa house para sbai kami punta kla ken ng 4pm.. so he went here sa house ng before 4, and guess what??.. dala na niya ang result ku.. haha. loko tLGa baby ko, he didn't tell me daw kasi cgurado dko siya papaiagan!.. baby ko tLGa.. full of surprises!.. ;-p tpos aun, we went sa house ni ken.. tambay2 lng, watched dvd.. tpos swimming! ang kulit ni mon sobwa! pnagod ako, kasi sobrang kiliti lng gngwa skn.. nakakatuwa raw kasi ung tawa ko.. tama ba un??.. waa! kakapagod!.. saia magswimming! lalo na with my baby!.. ang swit2 tLGa nun.. sobwa.. he was asking me last night if i rilY fiL na inaalagan niya ako.. sb ko, xempre naman.. sobrang alaga gngwa nun skn. i'm so lucky to have him tLGa.. got his gift na.. ang cute, si stitch.. look o.. --> ang cute noh??.. i even sprayed his perfume jan eh.. para maalala ko siya.. kasi i askd him, to give me ung empty bottle ng perfume nia, pag ubos na.. ang cute kasi ng mga itsura.. i have his dunhill perfume.. ung mukhang lighter.. eh may laman pa xa konti, i sprayed it ky stitch. hehe. aun.

i miss him na.. can't wait for tuesday!.. it's his birthday!.. hehe.. miss you baby!.. love you baby!

bored..

2005-12-11T02:22:00.000-08:00

tagal ku na pla hnde nagbBlog!.. heehee.. actually i don't remember what happened this week. maybe, usual week lng tLga itong week na2. nothing special happened.

oh yeah. we finished watching the 2 seasons of the OC. and man, where are you season 3??.. bitin kasi eh!.. sobrang hahanap-hanapin mu ung season 3.. haha.

tpos, finish na ung Pinoy Big Brother. last night yung Big Night, i really wanted Jason to win. pero ok lang.. Nene won. ;-)

nga pla, baby went here yesterday. he told me, kahit daan lang siya saglit coz he really wanted to see me.. so, punta siya dito, and i was like not finished dressing up pa when he arrived. so i was so wasted tLga. but no worries, he still appreciated me, eventho i looked sabog. haha. nwei, nag-magic xa sa kapatid ku and sa cuz ku. ung sa cards, ang saya naman nila. ang cute tgnan eh. hihi. after that, Ishang was telling me how much she enjoyed what Mon did. haha. Non-stop tLGa!.. it's good to know how much they like him. hihi.

grbe, lapit na ung Xmas break. i just want for the exam days to be over para Xmas Party na. hehe. la ako masabi. basta i promise, next time. serious bLog na tLga. ;-)

greaT weekend.. ;-)

2005-12-04T09:36:00.000-08:00

*sigh* may pasok nanaman bukas. pwO ok lng un!.. magkkta nanaman kami ng baby koh.. ;-)

Last friday, nagstart ung bivouac [tama ba spelling?].. it's this CAT thing, wherein they train you.. basta something lyk that. Varsity members and the Scouting Club are excused in that activity pwo kng gusto pede sumama. Pinipilit ako sumama ni Ja. Sasama na dapat ako, pwo d pLa sasama c Mon, so d nLng ako sumama. Pwo ang saya sana nun!.. Nainggit nga kme ni gege nun eh. We even wished na sana it would rain, and yeah, it did!.. Wish granted. haha. sorry, kinawawa naman kayo. Peace. ;-p

Tpos yesterday, go na go na ako magtraining, as in papasok na kme ni gege sa Beda, bigLang umuLan!.. ha, biLis ng kaRma!]o, pinuntahan muna namin cLa ja, nicai, lia and jeni sa tent nila.. [bivouac's for 3 days].. tambay2 muna kme dun, nakikain!.. hehe. ;-p then bumaLIk na kme dun.. and found out na, wala pawin c Coach Domeng. so hntay2 muna kme, until gusto na tLGa naming umuwi, kasi i have to go to Dasma pa to get my result. Edy un we went home na.

So, un nga, dapat me and Mon are going tO get the result together. usapan 9.30. i was texting him tLGa sobra, tpos 9.30 na hnde parin nagrereply. so panic naman ako. kasi i dont noe if tuLoy ba.. edy i called him na sa bahay, aba! tuLog pa!.. hnde xa ginising.. haha. inis na inis xa sobra. so we ended up hanging out @ town nalang. ikot2, biLLiards, ikot2.. sobrang katamad. coz it's early pa eh.. haha. tPos, Mommy texted me na nandun na cLa. so hinatid niya ako ky Mommy sa foodcourt. he txted me na kita uLt kami mamia after the movie. hihintayin nia ako. So, me, Ishang, Mommy and Mama watched Just Like Heaven.. boy, was it so good!.. as in, galeng!.. may chemistry si Reese Witherspoon and si Mark Ruffalo.. *blush blush* panoorin nio!.. [teaser: may part dun na akala ni David -Mark Ruffalo- na mwawala na si Elizabeth -Reese Witherspoon-, kasi diba spirit na si Elizabeth and she needs David to help her. may pic sa may hospital bed ni Elizabeth, na nagulat siya na nakay David na. she goes like, "Where did you get this?" tpos sb ni David, "I'm sorry..I was just afraid that i might not see you again, ever. so, i got it.."].. AwwwWww.. pag napanuod nio, ganda tLGa. i even criEd!.. ;-)

so after the movie, nagkTa uLt kme ni Mon. He was w/ his friends na. Tambay2 lng kme sa Efren's and then, ikot sa Rustan's tPos hinatid na ako uLt ky Mommy, kasi i have to go home na. aun. ;-)

gRabe!. i watched nga pla this Eddie Guerrero tribute sa JackTV last night. nakakaiyak!.. sobra.. the funny thing was, the big, buLky wrestLers were crying, tOo. [imagine the Big Show crying.. pretty scene, huh?]

So later, we're gonna hear Mass, and Ruin's ata.. ;-p

start of another month..

2005-12-01T02:52:00.000-08:00

yep, it's the start of another month and specifically, the last month of the year. *sigh* time really flies by so fast. and it's only now that i realize that it can go by, this fast. things had been pretty messed up, but so what, everythings getting together right now. i'm so happy. ;-)

this week has been a busy week for me. i'm supposed to blog tomorrow, para almost end of the week nawin, pwo i'm really excited to blab and blab about what i did for the past days. hihi.

Monday. Holiday. we went to 168 mall near Divisoria. i'm sure you guys have heard of it. nwei, i insisted on my Mom to take me there coz i heard that prices were cheap there. we left the house at around 8 and boy, was it a wrong move!.. we should've left earlier coz sobwang traffic tLga. we had a hard time finding a place to park. finally, we decided to work out our charms. By that, we instantLy got a parking space!.. haha. Smiling have always been the magic. hihi. nwei, the pLace was kind of smelly and dirty, but who cares? anything for a cheap price. (who can bLame me? i nid to save. hihi).. then, we got in. my initial reaxon was, "How am i gonna shop w/ this kind of mob?".. it was kinda hard. but worth it, coz we bought a lot of stuffs. i have gifts for Christmas, too. problem-free. i wanna go back there. hindi ako kuntento!.. hehe. we got home @ around 5.30.

Mon txted me if i was at home already. He told me he's gonna come and see me. He was @ ATC w/ his mom and ate. i told him ok, thinking he was only joking. kz xempwe, nasa town xa w/ his Mom and Ate, tas bgLa ppnta skn. impossible right?.. but no, pumunta tLga xa. i just went out of the bathroom, i took a bath kasi, 20 mins. na naghhntai sa labas!.. haha. sorry baby, pnahintay kta. hehe. aun, nag-Hi lng xa ky Mommy then, his Ate was calling him na kasi so he went back to ATC na. but before that, nag-stroll muna kme sa village namin. tas he went back na. hihi. so sweet, huh? ;-)

Tuesday. 1st LT2 day. Went to school early. To study. Mon went to school early ,too. I really really appreciate him doing that. It's not normal for him to go to school early pag exam namin kasi 12 pa ung pasok. but becoz of me, pmapasok na xa ng maaga. awww, sweet tLga. he's the one who taught me sa Math. savior ku tLGa un eh. hehe.

Wednesday. 2nd and last LT2 day. pasok uLt ng maaga. c Mon win. he taught me naman sa Physics. as in, d xa 2migil na bgai ng bgai ng problem unless i get it right. He wants me to ace the test kasi. para daw, when i show my Mom my grades, tas mataas and it was becoz of him, iL have something to be proud of pag sknia daw. i told him, "Don't worry baby, dati pa ako proud sau..".. hehe. ;-) another kilig moment nanaman for us. hehe. after the blood-curling tests, me and Mon, together w/ some of our friends (Lia, Jeni, Ja and Mark) went to Town. we watched the Chicken Little. Fish was so cuute!.. he/she was in the bowl. (haha, not sure if Fish was a boy or a girL).. tPos may kwento ako, kasi they were doing something, (Ja, Mark, Jeni and Mon) na naOP ako. so, i dcyded to make libot. as in, kaka-step ku plng palayo, bgLang "Baby! San ka pupunta?".. tas ako, gulat ako. sb ku, tingin2 lng ako d2. edy sb nia cge daw. tas niyaya ku c jeni na magLibot sa Store. gusto ku lng tgnan ung Kitchen. tpos after a few minutes, cnundan na kme nila Mon, sb skn.. "Knina pa kita hnahanap ah!.. auKo naman kasi nawawala ka sa paningin ku eh!".. parang ako, "Sorry baby".. grbe noh, it's the first time i felt that someone doesn't riLy want me to be gone. OA, pwo yes, un ang nafil ku nun. hihi. so un, we (me and jeni) went home ng mga 7.

this day, was another normal day. some of the test results were given. actually, Fili plng and i did good naman. and it was a great day for me and my baby. saya namin. he left his phone and wallet w/ me. hehe. kalimutan ibaLIk. i asked him knina.. "Baby, knina narealize ku na, we've been taLking, on the phone or in person, almost everyday since last year, dka ba nagsasawa?".. tas parang xa, "Ano ka ba baby, bat mu naman naicp yan? Nagsasawa kb?".. tas sb ku, "Hinde, love na love kita baby".. tas sb niya, "Yan din ang reason ku baby, love kita.".. hehe. la lng. Just being sure.

So, tomorrow, i think we're only gonna have 3 subs, coz in the morning Mass tas afternoon, College talk. so, un. till next time guys!.. ;-)

woohoo.. wattaday.. ;-)

2005-11-26T18:39:00.000-08:00

yesterday was fun!.. super.

in the morning, me and gege had our tennis training. it was uber fun!.. kht na dna maxadong maganda ung mga paLo ku, ok naman. 2 months ako d nagtraining noh!.. mababaLk dn ung dati. hehe. nagKnockout game kme khpon. Boy, was i embarassed. kaLban ku 1st yr ata un o 2nd year. doii!.. 7-0 ang score. guess who's the one hu got zero??.. haha. ok ok, laugh laugh laugh! :-p gaganti ako next time! haha.

after training, we (me and gege) went to our house to rest for a while then tooK a bathe na and got ready coz gege's going to meet up with Ren. usapan 11, as usual, pag pnagsama tLga kme ni gege, wala na. L-A-T-E always. hehe. we arrived @ ATC ng mga quarter to 12 i think. (sorry Ren! ;-p) it's my fauLt, ang bagal ku tLGa, nauna c gege magbhis skn. hehe.. tPOs we went to Ren's house.. ;-) Mon went there.. then we ate and then nauna na kme ni Mon sa ATC. we watched the Exorcism of Emily Rose.. kzo pag dating namin sa moviehouse, wala pang 20minutes ata un, it ended na. haha. tPos he bought pretzels nga pla. grabe, subuan ba naman ako ng subuan ng sobrang malalaki na bits ng pretzels, oti tLga uN! hehe. edy gnanthan ku..! hehe. mine's got sugar, mas messy pag sknia. hehe. belat!.. ;-p bsta kuLit tLga nun. hehe. tPos gs2 niya kz lagi daw may nginunguya pag sa moviehouse, so sbi nia bLI kme ng popcorn. edy labas kme, d naman kme nakabiLI, nagikOt lng kme. pag balik tuLoy naMin sa moviehouse, wala ng seat!.. hehe.. nandun cLa ken, lia, tin and kenneth. tumabi nlng kme sknla. don't ask kng pano kme nakaupo. haha!.. ;-p

after nun Mon and I got tired of watching it na. hehe. so dna namin tnapos. nga pLa, nagbiLLiards kme ni Mon. tnuruan nia ako. i forgot how to play na. kZ tagal ku na d naglalaro ng billiards. hehe. ;-p kuLit nga eh.

so un nga, when we got out of the moviehouse, nandun na cla gege.. bsta lahat cla!.. hehe. pinilit ku c Mon to go with us kina Stefan birthday nia kasi. (our former classmate back in 2nd year.).. nahihiya kz xa to go with us kz he doesn't know Stefan maxado dw. napilit ku win xa, he went w/ us. gs2 nia win daw kz ako makasama pa ng matagal. hehe. yey!.. kaia aun, when we got there, he learned na kabarkada nga pLa nia c Stefan nun. kz he used to play soccer w/ them sa Beda. they hung out w/ each other noOn. hehe. aun, laf3p lng. naglakad lakad kme dun. ang hiLig nia Tlga na buhatin ako. waa! nakakatkot pa naman pag bnubuhat ako. haha. pwo nasanai na ako. araw araw ba naman ako buhatin!.. hehe. ;-p

aun, i got home mga 11 na. Mom was getting mad na eh. haha. lam niyo kng bkt??.. pnapauwi na ako kz she wants to watch the OC na. eh we don't watch untiL nandun na kme lahat. haha. d cla makanuod kz dpa kme compLete!.. haha. episode 12 plng kme!..16 more to go!.. hihi. ;-p

i was so happy yesterday. halos buong araw kme magksama ni Mon. ;-) i appreciate it naman, kz he gave his time to me. *sigh*.. never ku na tLga pakakawalan un!.. hehe. dadating ung time na malalagpasan win namin lahat ng mga taong kng anu2 ang iniicp. AT LEAST WE HAVE EACH OTHER naman db?.. un lng ang importante skn ngaun. ;-)

yehey!.. ;-)

2005-11-22T19:03:00.000-08:00

*sigh* another day of happiness. ;-) i've been feeling this for quite a while already.. grbe.

nung Sunday, we watched HP4!.. it was super duper nice. ang galeng nung pagAdapt nila ng story. galeng2 tLga ni J.k. Rowling. idol promz!.. Daniel Radcliffe showed his abs there!.. *teehee*.. yummy! haha. Rupert Grint is so muscular nawin. mapapancn nio tLga eventho he's wearing long sleeves. ang cute win nung Weasley Twins!.. pati c Draco!.. iba nanaman ung hairdo nia! can't wait for the next HP movie. i'm reading it now!.. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, the 5th booK. [teaser:ayaw ku mejo nung 5th movie coz Cho gets to kiss Harry. grr.].. haha!.. nagselos eh noh.

nwei, i went to skuL knina ng mga lunchtym. Mommy toLd me not to go to skul coz i'm going to have my checkup w/ my bro. Ang lala na ng ubo at cpoN naMn!.. Mon wants me to attend our cLasses after lunch. i txted him kninang umaga, nagSorry ako na d ako pnaiagan ni mommy. dameh ku pa aLibi na pnagsssbi. nagtxt c ja. i told her na sShh lng xa, papasok naman tLga ako. tPos when i went up the HS building na, nakita ako ni Mon, haha!.. natawa ako sknia, ang saya magHello eh. ;-) haha. aun.

ishang likes him!.. eh ung sister ku pa naman na un, ang hirap kunin ng loob nun!.. hehe. ang saia ko, ok c Mon for ishang.

song ku ngaun for him ung "And I" ni Ciara. iL post the lyrix later. *sigh* i'm super happy tLga. ang laki ku nang tanga f ever iL let go of someone like him. hayy, alam ku sawa na kau kkbasa ng mga paulit-ulit kong mga rants bout him. but i couldn't help. lahat naman tLga nsknia na. dhiL sknia, i'm changing. i'm even studying better than before!.. hayy, dapat tLga, gawing inspiraxon ang mga boys. i toLd myself, after having a serious relationship with Norms, auko na. ang sakit magng seryoso. alam nyo un?.. you felt it would last forever. you felt he was the one na. then suddenly, *wham!* he'll hurt you. ouch. pwo binabawi ku na un!.. ung dna ako magseseryoso?.. no way. Mon is someone you'll get serious with. matatakot kang saktan mo xa. dhL lahat ggwn nia para sumaia ka. aun. lantad na ang spexal someone ku. haha. dunno what others will think. but i hope walang makitid ang utak jan. hate them. i know the real story, kaia wutever others would think, pake ko!..
i know there will be the right time wherein we'LL put our relationship to the next level. hnde pa ngaun un. bsta i know, mas naggng deep ung feelings ku 4 him. i super care for him. ;-)

bsta he super inspires me!.. ;-) sana dna xa mawala. ;-)

And I

i dont need me a basketball player what i need is somebody thats down for me, and he dont have money his love is just like honey its so sweet to me.
i can have everything in the world , but sacrifice it all for him and i made up my mind, im in love this time, and it feels so real.
And i know that he wont break my heart, and i, know that we won't ever part, and its time, time for us to settle down, and i, wanna be with him forever.
they can say that i ain't crazy for making him my baby but it's flowers for me, see but idone made many changes, but this one i ain't changing, this is gonna stay the same
i can have everything in the world, but i sacrificed it all for him, and i made up my mind i'm in love this time, and it feels so real.
And i know that he wont break my heart, (break my heart no) and i, (i know) know that we wont ever part and this time, time (time...) for us to settle down and i (and I) wanna be with him forever.
i love you and all the things you do (oh baby please) i need you so believe me ill do (ill do) ohhhhh cuz i love you and every little thing baby.. they dont know how i feel cuz i no this is real
and i know that he wont break my heart, and i, (i know) know that we wont ever part and this time, time for us to settle down and i wanna be with him forever.
and i know that he wont break my heart, and i, (i know) know that we wont ever part and this time, time for us to settle down and i wanna be with him forever.

i am so in Love ryt now!.. ;-)

2005-11-18T18:16:00.000-08:00

this week has been soO great..!! sobwang saya tLga..

nung Monday. ung WNCAA nga..

nung Tuesday. we had an exposure triP.. sa Art club.. d natuLoi ung sa ABS-CBN namin. kz nacancel ung taping ng Art Jam, pwo sa January nlng itutuloy un, so Ms. Gabor brought us to the Pinoy Big Brother house.. haha hanggang harap lng kme. it was so small. ibang iba pag sa TV.. hehe. after nun, went to Megamol tO visit art galleries.. it was so cooL.. galeng niLa. den ms. gabor gave us an hour and a half to make ikot sa maLL.. it's been 5 years since the last time i went to Megamall. kaia we were like tourists, parang first time lng makakita ng mall. haha. after that we went sa Bangko Sentral Museum.. bawal magPic sa loob. ;-( we have tO leave our cameras sa guard, so i left it. but i brought my fone kaia pasaway kme, nagpic kme. haha. ;-p there was this maze, na paper buong buo. ang kulit, gnwa naming party haven namin nila gege. haha. the song "My Humps" is super stuck in our minds.. party song namin un eh!.. hehe. we went home mga 4.30.. namis ku c mon!.. hehe. here are some pix nung expo namin.. :

these are just some of the pix..

nwei, wednesday and thursday... nuthin' much happened..

Friday.. un!.. Hale and Mojofly concert. nung umaga, classes.. nung club tym, may different bands na nagperform nun. Bands from our school. Ang wierd nga ng mga naMes niLa eh xobwa.. hehe. Gulat ako kz Bufi sings pLa.. he sang "The Passenger Seat", their own version daw.it was oK.. hehe. tPos, went tO town with ances nd anna. Bumili ng outfit c anna, tPos hinatid kme ni tita sa hauz.. d2 kme nagbihis n ances, late na nga kme nagstart maLigo. kaia nung dumating na c lolo para ihatid ako, dpa ako nakaaus, dun nlng ako kila ja nagaUs.. we went there para sabai2 kme pumunta sa concert. and then, mejo hassle nung unA kasi may mga "initan" na nangyari, pwo after that it turned out oK.. konti lng ung knanta ng Hale, una muna MojofLy, ok naman xa. nga pLa, kasama ku nun c mOn.. ang saia nung after the concert, may dance showdown, ang kuLt. ang galeng ni norm v. yes!.. astig tLga.. after nun, Mommy fetched my sis and bro na, nagpaalam ako kng pde pa gumimik. pnaiagan nia ako hanggang 1. went to town, w/ mon, jeni, gege and ren. tPos kita2 kme dun sa Starbucks. Bnaba muna naMin cla gege, tas pinaRk ni mon ung caR, went w/ him. tPos pagpunta namin ng starbucks, Norms was there. Ok.. ;-p hihi. tPos, stayed there for awhile.. Frap2.. dumating cLa kaz.. den after several minutes, umalis na kme, we went to MuntinLupa, tas hinatid na c gege sa bhay. as usual, nakahanap nanaman ako ng tuLog sa car. haha!.. tPos, ako na ung hinatid. hehe. ;-p here are some pix from yesterday..

..yesterday, too, became one of my most favorite days.. xobwang memorable tLga. xempre, if you're w/ someone very spexaL to yOu.. tLGang sasaya ka. xobrang i felt sure about everything yesterday. about mon. my feelings for him. it grows deeper and deeper everyday. i really am feeling chemistry here. and connection. it really feels good. nobody ever made me feel this way. (as the song "Stickwitu" goes).. Mon was constantly playing it in the car last night. it was so sweet. ;-) song ko un for him e.

Now?.. i really don't care about what others may think. As long as i have him, my friends, and family, everything'll be PERFECT. i know the real score. so i don't have to be guiLty. i know he's the onLy one that can change everything. spexaLLy the bad traits i had. it'LL be all GONE. i know now, everything'll be MORE serious. spexaLi w/ someone who REALLY loves me so much. ;-)

p.s. ung complete pix next month pa sa MULTIPLY ku ilalagay. no space na kasi eh. aarggh. hihi.

happy day

2005-11-14T22:11:00.000-08:00

yey! 1st runner uP kme knina sa WNCAA. haha. xuperr advenchur ung punta naMin dun. ung pLan, pnta cLa gege and jeni hir sa hauz ng umaga. so they went hir knina mga 7am ata un, super tuLog pa ako. i heard voices, knabahan ako, un pLa cLa gege lng knina sa roOm ku!.. haha.. edy nagcng na ako. i toOk a bath ng mga 8.15.. kz they wanted na umalis na ng mga 9.30.. edy fyn!.. hehe. mOn called, sb nia pnta daw xa d2 sa hauz, d ako naniwala, edy aKo naman, bgay lng ng bgay ng direxon papunta hir sa hauz.. tpos pmnta nga!.. c",) hihi. nga pLa, naging parLor ang aking house.. cNurL ku cLa jeni and gege, tas straight naman ky ja.. haha. aun, pagdating ni mOn, nilibot ku xa sa viLaj, i showed him ung house na puro car, madameh. hihi. hiLig un sa car eh. ;-p

aun, after, he decyded to go with me na sa Cuneta. sumabai samin c mon. xobwang he toLd me, para sure na xa na safe ako. sabay2 kme nila ken, gege, jeni, ja and charLes. hihi. sweet noh? .. aun, we arrived mga 12.. hiwalay muna kme ni mon, he went w/ his friends muna tas ako win. aun. galeng ng Miriam College, idol!.. aus win ung amin!.. hihi. tPos pagkatpos, kita lng kme ni mon, tas pnta xa sa G4 tas ako sa town. para may time with friends.. ;-)

sa Town. kumain kme. as usual sa Tokyo Tokyo ako. the usual Beef Misono.. haha.. tPos pnta kami knina sa Starbucks, may humarang na guy, cute xa infairness!.. tpos sb nia.. "You wanna see magic?".. tas aun, nagMagic xa!.. ;-p haha. kuLt!.. name daw niya Mark. haha. aun, tpos kme ni ja, libot2 kme.. we went home na mga 6.. ;-) kakatakot nga eh!.. gabing gabi na!.. scary.

aun. tnatamad ako magBlog.. next tym maaus na!.. badtrip, dna ako pdeng maguPload ng pix sa multiply.. hntay nanaman ako ng December para new set of pix. grr.

tomorrow. pnta kme ABS-CBN, watch kme Art Jam. exposure trip ng cLub namin. haha. tpos stopover ata kme sa PBB house! wee! cge, nxt tym ulit! mwah!

so haPpy

2005-11-13T00:16:00.000-08:00

grbe. everything's ok ryt now. everything's in place. kht na i know, there are pipol hu doesn't understand me (and him), hu cares??.. what's important is that we both noe what's ryt and we didn't do anything wrong. chaka i noe naman how supportive my friends are. aLam nila all the things i went through noon, and really, i deserve everything that i have right now.

kya super thankful ako sknia, coz he freed me from all the things i hated back then. ung situations i don't want to be into. and ang sarap ng feeling tLga na, nababago mu xa, and tLGang nagbabago xa para sau. haayy, i've never met someone lyk him, super kakaiba tLGa xa. and i'm lucKy na i got to meet someone lyk him. mga GUYS na tulad niya? tss. konti nlng ung mga ganun. kaia, never ku na 2 pakakawalan.

someday tLga, i would shout out his name and tell the whole world how he makes me happy. how he puts a smile on my face everyday. someday, when wala na ung makikitid ang utak na mga tao. aun.

so this practically, is my first serious entry here. hihi. ;-)

p.s. soO excited sa HALE concert on friday!!.. ;-)

1st entry

2005-11-12T21:58:00.000-08:00

yey!.. first entry. check lng muna if this will work. ;-)

finally, i stood up once again.. and i'm afraid to fall again..

bye bye.

FINAL 1st sem week. yay!

uhm..

everybody deserves a SECOND chance

he loves me. :]

is this the sign?

bagsak ang body.. haha.

i'm so tired..

after a looooooooong time. haha

you make me happy.. :)

hello? brain?

be mine.

fill it please.

i'm scared.

pool of thoughts. waa.

LOVE.. never left me.

sadness.happiness.ayayay.. gulo. haha.

missing every1.. :c

*excited*

it's becoming harder and harder each day..

hard to spell..

i missed manila :)

reminiscing..

oh no..

i realized something..

naman eh..

i'm so ok.. :)

i'm leaving. haha

grr.. nasad nanaman ako..

thought everything will be fine..

can't wait to go to Bora!

i can do this.. :)

slowly forgetting :)

go me!

sige, magsama kau.. mga kupal

can i die now?

can i die now?

wala tlgang continuous happiness sa buhay ko...

bored.bored.bored

sad sad life

it's our 4th month together! :)

foodtrip!

mas backstab day ito!.. haha.. :)

backstab day ba ito? haha. :)

boring day

busy busy

alone mode ako..

happy monthsary baby!

i'm so inLove! sobra!

anoder month!

badtrip..

mimi. so happy! (boo!) hahaha..

wee!

sadness..

bitin!

2006 na!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

ang sweet ni baby!.. ;-)

new layout!

success!

happy day to me.. ;-p

after a looNg tym .. ;-)

bored..

greaT weekend.. ;-)

start of another month..

woohoo.. wattaday.. ;-)

yehey!.. ;-)

i am so in Love ryt now!.. ;-)

happy day

so haPpy

1st entry

excited